#ktent

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Sporting a comfortable set of gym wear Sohee praise the spring season, the warm weather a perfect end of the month of April. The crop top reveal toned abs yet allow for the chilly breeze to brush over her skin, leaving goosebumps as a result. It isn’t cold outside but ultimately, that wind cool her down nonetheless as she prepare a camera to record.

Sohee doesn’t have much confidence in her dancing skills. Now, she isn’t awful, but she’s far way from where she want to be, from where she need to be. That is why she decided to make this particular recording without a friendly audience, so that she can make so mistakes without someone watching behind the scenes. She want this to be perfect.

          “ are you sure you want to ask me this? because i could go on for hours. i mean it, hours. ” she’s already quite talkative in the first place but to add on that it’s for kt trainees or her group members, it’d be nearly impossible to get her to shut up if she gets going. whether it’s praise, unneeded advice, constructive criticism, wishes, anything    —   she has plenty to offer. “ i think i’d start with … i’m glad you’re here. i’m glad that no matter how you got here, you’re here and that means more than it seems like sometimes. there’s going to be ugly days, boring days, even days where you might think of walking out the door. maybe there won’t be days like that. maybe there’ll be days you feel like you belong, those are the ones that are going to be worth it. whether you feel it now or you don’t find it here, i hope you have that kind of day. i hope you live that kind of life. i hope that you feel even a semblance of the amount of heart everyone in kt has, whether they show it in a friendly way or if they’re … not so outgoing and soft. ” 

“It’s been two years now, right, Sooyoung-ssi?” Ms. Lee says, glancing down at her paperwork as if to make sure it was true. “From where you started to where you are now- well, the fact you’re preparing for debut should say enough.” She closes the beige folder and sets it to one side, revealing a different set of paperwork underneath. “We have another contract for you to sign today and I hope you won’t back out now that we’re so close to your dreams. You know what to do.” She pushes the paperwork toward you, turning it to face you; it’s just as you remember, even down to the colored Post-It flags sticking out from between the pages, showing you exactly where to sign.

may 30th, the day that she’s unintentionally been counting down to from the moment she signed her first contract, still surrounded by a whirlwind of emotions from the mgas and more than overwhelmed by a future ahead of her. there have been ups and downs, that’s for sure- and quite a few moments where sooyoung was pretty sure she wouldn’t even make it to this point.

yet here she is, sitting in front of katie lee, with another two years being offered, and a debut practically guaranteed. 

and she chokes.

“thank you, sajangnim. i’m honored to be offered two more years here.”

she’s thankful that they’re allowed time to think on resigning, though she’s not sure that anyone in the room appreciates when she quietly thanks them and leaves without signing right away. (truth be told, she’s not sure why she wouldn’t.) but she goes about her day as if nothing happened, all the while holding the thought in the back of her head that in a roundabout way, katie lee must be proud of her somehow- she wouldn’t be in the lineup for debut if she weren’t, right?

but still, she takes the time to reflect on two years spent, with the better part being unsure of just where she stood in the company. part of her wants to leave now, while the contract terms are filled and there won’t be any debt to worry about; to go back to living live more freely, and doing what she wanted. the other half thinks of tiffany, of yeri, of taeyeon and sunyoung and even taemin and the other boys. she couldn’t let them down so easily, right? yet hyeri comes to mind, who so soon after being put into debut let go of her dreams, and the hurt that she left in her wake was only just starting to go away. 

would she even have that impact? 

tied up in her own thoughts and makeshift wants and pros and cons of leaving or staying with kt, she goes through the motions of training, observing everyone else more intensely than she would on a normal day. would they stay again too?

even the lightened schedule of the weekend does little to turn her thoughts from renewal. it should be an obvious answer- and the fact that it feels like it isn’t worries her and she’s not sure why. she’s always been quick to make decisions, and why shouldn’t this one be an easy yes?

if she didn’t renew, there would be no debut, and the rest of the girls would either have to downsize the group or have no group at all, and sooyoung would be responsible for tanking everyones’ dreams just because she wanted a break. if she did sign on for another two years, who was to say it wouldn’t still take months to move ahead in the debut plans? or that things wouldn’t change and the little freedom she had would be taken away?

she feels guilty for something that should be such an obvious and simple answer not being that. if her heart were with kt, and in training, wouldn’t she have signed the moment she sat down? 

monday morning, with only two days left before they’ll consider her terminated, she requests to be seen, although it seems like everyone expects it already. she sits down in the seat across from the ceo, and with (still, because she can never not be a nervous wreck in front of katie lee) shaking hands she signs her name on the dotted line once again, praying that things go right.

You are interrupted during a morning lesson by your vocal coach but, instead of receiving praises or complaints, they tell you your presence is needed elsewhere. As you draw closer to Katie Lee’s office you can’t help but wonder what is so important that she needs to tell you herself. However, before you’ve reached the office, your coach turns towards a room on your right and tells you to take a seat.

The woman sitting at the table isn’t your CEO, but one you know holds a strong position in the company. Once you sit down, she gives you a smile. “Hello, Tiffany. I’m glad to see you here today.” You can’t tell if she’s sincere with her greeting, yet you keep paying attention regardless. “As you were told about some months ago, we have been preparing a very special pre-debut company project. After much thought, we’ve decided your long-time dedication, growth, and talent should award you the second spot in KTROOKIES.”

She leans to the side to take a file out from inside her purse and places it right in front of you. “In here is your full preparation schedule with everything you need to worry about. Your introduction video will be the second upload of a sub-channel under the KTROOKIES name, and you’ll also have a photoshoot to have your pictures displayed on KT’s official website.” The dates and details are all listed on the file for your future reference. “You won’t need to make up any normal training you miss when you’re called upon for KTROOKIES, so you won’t need to worry about that.”

Once she finishes her prepared speech, the woman relaxes. “I hope you’re excited for this. It’ll be a long ride.”

she wouldn’t know where to begin. it reminds her of the day of her contract renewal ( yikes, that one is coming up again fast ), of the process of becoming a mga coach ( we all know how that ended ), and of possibly facing suspension in high school because her then boyfriend thought sneaking on campus at midnight was a bright idea. all things that are better off being put off if you ask her. 

nervous, anxious, confused, she’s a electrified bundle of emotions with no way of releasing them. a shake of her leg  —  no, it’s too loud. tapping of her fingers on her thighs   —   no again, too obvious. she settles for toying with the ends of her hair but it comes off a little mean girls and legally blonde, not that anything is wrong with channeling one’s inner elle woods. hell, how could she object when she was chanel oberlin of all people last halloween? 

but this is different, this feels different. 

obviously enough, the office itself is different and the woman in front of her is quite different too. glad to see you  — sounds just formal enough to be kind yet threatening. such a succinct message capable of far too much for an over-thinker like her. 

ktrookies. 

this was it, the pre-debut team they’d heard of months ago. what could essentially be the gateway to debut itself and she’s a member of it. her heart races but her mind wraps around the word second. somehow, without asking, she knows who first is and it’s not surprising nor uncalled for. still, she can’t help the small twinge of jealousy that threatens to steal away her excitement. 

second, isn’t she destined to be when there’s taeyeon? yet she can’t be consumed by it. the more she hears it, the more annoying it becomes. it didn’t faze her before but to hear others say it, acknowledge it, decide as if it’s the natural and only way things can be — it inspires her to work harder and there’s determination flooding into her eyes. her legs no longer shake as she’s unwavering with resolve. 

“kt won’t regret this choice.” 

                         HARK THE KT ANGELS SING ♫ GLORY TO MISS KATIE LEE ♥ 

all kt trainees should have received a submit with a christmas card inviting them to join in the festivities! please let sera or i know if you have not received one! some examples of what should have been received are as follows: ♥, ♥, ♥  

a list of all the ornaments will be posted ( hopefully ) soon! but this isn’t the only way kt trainees are celebrating the holidays and spreading christmas cheer! 

to my knowledge, these trainees have made a post as to what their christmas presents for all kt trainees are: 

taemin ♥

soyeon ( cheonso ) ♥

the following trainees have sent out submits! 

hyeri 

jimin

woohyun

aron

yeri

sooyoung

tiffany ( meaning they will be sent out after this post!! some have already been sent!! ) ***

role call: @rkxsooyoung @rkcheonso @rkeunae @rkkanggary @rkxkjd @rktaeyeon @rkyeri @yulrk @aronrk @rkhyeri @taeminrk @rkwoohyun @rkxjimin @rksunyoung @rkkris