@krakened š®šš®šøš²š»š²š± ššµš² šš¼š¹š³ : we both know i'm worth waiting for . / modern
ššµš²š šš®š š¼š»š¹š š³š¼š¼š¹š šæšššµ š¶š» , though how long does it take before one considers this pointless? how long until she's ever the fool for waiting? it seems more and more likely that sansa would die in this place , in this purgatory of whatever they were. all that they were , all that they weren't. everything and nothing. longing and regret. it is a heavy contradiction that weighs down on her , and she is growing tired of it. the secrecy , the unknown. there are two painstaking truths that glare her in the face , pin her down and force her to revel in them.
one , she was falling for theon greyjoy. sansa longed for him , longed for him to say she was his and he was hers. wanted this more than anything. two , she cannot and could not claim him in public. she wants to be his , but mostly in the shadows. for sansa cannot handle the scrutiny , cannot handle the whispers and rumors. could not listen to the taunting from her family , shock from her brother , disapproval from her mother. sansa never claimed to be rational about this whole situation , for if she was , they never would've ended up between sheets to begin with. for now , she wears the title of walking contradiction with both shame and honor.
ā are you? ā there's an amusement in her question , though she doesn't let it settle long in the air. there's a clawing at her chest , a sort of ferocious beast that is torn between lunging towards him in need , but resentment all the same. why is she not good enough for him to claim? they practically were together , in every way but title. this was the first time she had brought it up to him , and she regrets it now. for he is truly incapable of not making it a joke , a sarcastic taunt in favor of his ego.
ā in my exeprience , men who are worth the wait know what they want. ā she brushes past him , shoulder slightly making contact with him as she goes to leave. there's a pause , auburn hair twirls behind her as she tries to make one last attempt at this all. is this how she wishes to leave it? does this even earn her the upper hand? that's what all of this had started as , in truth. who could hold the power over who. well , theon won. arrogant little shit got under her skin , made her heart beat for him , dreams repeat scenes of their encounters each night. she wanted him , though not in the bedroom , in every way she had to offer. yet , he was too immature , he couldn't see this for what it was , and she foolishly allowed herself to get hurt. sansa was smart , she should've known better.
ā i don't need the world to see it , but i do need you to see it , theon. ā she looks down , a frustrated sigh released. her annoyance lies with herself more than him , for allowing herself to get to this point with him. theon stayed true to himself , she will give him that , but it doesn't make this heart ache and realization any easier. ā men worth the wait know women like me don't wait around forever. ā and yet , she has surrendered. in truth , if he found her a lifetime from now , finally ready to make her his own , she would give in. this world , the next , and the one after. that is how hopelessly gone she is.