Dec 28, 2025
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Ohhh you wanna read my fanfic so bad
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As you all know I unironically love Limp Bizkit. Part of this is because I just think a lot of their music absolutely slaps even if sometimes the lyrics are uhhh cringe. But part of it is also because Fred Durst's songwriting is so interesting to me in that he is so obsessed with presenting as a hypermasculine ideal even though it very clearly makes his art worse and is obviously a front. It's all a very succinct case study on American masculinity and all its faults
One of my favorite examples of this is "Eat You Alive" off of the album "Results May Vary" (my fave album by them, in part because the weaknesses in his writing are so noticeable BECAUSE it is so unpolished and raw). "Eat You Alive" is such a funny song to me because it presents itself as a song reveling in a masculine sexuality, but the self consciousness of it is palpable. Like in trying to present himself as an unapologetically horny dude, he really just ends up revealing how uncomfortable and embarrassed about it he is. Fascinating!
Some people like to write a FengQing dynamic where one of them has been pining for the other for centuries, and I get the appeal of that I do. But to me it's like. We already HAVE that dynamic in the book. We already have "I've loved you and devoted my life to you for 800 years, I've seen you at your best and your worst and it's only made me love you more."
I'm ready for a NEW treat. I'm ready for "this intimacy between us was never my choice but now it's There. Unfortunately we've seen each other at our best and our worst in a way few people do and what the hell do we do with that". I'm ready for "we've spent 800 years by each other's side entirely against our will, forces just keep bringing us together and now I recognize you by your shadow".
Ya know. Ya know what I'm saying. 800 years of "I've found you insufferable At Best and at times assumed the absolute worst of you and even still I would risk my life for you because I can't imagine a life without you"
I think a key part of learning how to save money if you got that Lack of Impulse Control is making the act of saving money feel Good to Do. and I genuinely think a good way to do that is to save for and thus allow yourself to buy "frivolous things" that shitty people judge poor people for spending money on, like an art commission or a weird dildo or something.
I know that's hard to do sometimes because you will convince yourself you can't afford anything Nice Ever so why try. But that's the trick we're training your brain like a dog. "Save for a car" might feel completely unobtainable and thus stressful to even think about and also pointless to do. "Save for a commission from this artist I really like" you want that. You want that Bad. And maybe $70 is something you could scrounge up in a couple months
See the key is you'll have that moment where you're like "I only have $10 to my name, I feel like shit, it's not like $10 will get me anything, I might as well get takeout for dinner" and if that's what you do that's fine there's no shame there. But also. If you have Other Thing You Actually Want AND Actually Might Be Able To Get, you may be like "hnnnnnng but I do Want Thing" and it will be easier to save that $10 because you will still Feel Good for having done so. See in that moment you want "feel better" and immediate rewards like food you like help feel better, but feeling like you're taking an action towards an obtainable goal in that moment ALSO help feel better.
Positive reinforcement. We train the self to not get the coffee on the day you feel like shit. By training the self to buy furry art.
My Red Bull flavor ratings:
-Original: solid. 8/10
-Blueberry: PEAK Red Bull flavor 10/10. I call it Red Bull Blue Balls cause it's so good. Like balls and being edged.
-Skyblue: juneberry flavor. this is the one people always buy me when I say I want the blueberry Red Bull so my tasting is always tinged with disappointment. That being said 5/10
-Pink: this one is gross which is homophobic. 2/10
-Orange: this one is strawberry apricot flavored which is misleading I feel like why is it orange. It's pretty good. 8/10
-White: coconut flavor. this one tastes the most like you're drinking pure sugar. It tastes like you're drinking a melted slurpee. 7/10
-Tropical: I haven't tried this one but tropical flavored things always taste like bullshit so I know it will be like 2/10
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