#knuckledustdean

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Okay so I'm a total failure at updating y'all about my life on here I just blabber constantly on twitter about everything so I'm sORRY about that though some of you are probably grateful. ANYWAYS YES. Big things are happening in my life that I am very very very very VERY excited about (yes five verys were necessary get off my case ese). They're in the future a bit (as in like about a year from now) but I've finally gotten the balls to say sayonara to the school I'm currently attending and I'm gonna move to Austin, TX to pursue what I really want to do: film. 

To get down to the nuts and bolts of it, what brought this all on for the most part is that I'm really unhappy where I'm at with life right now. I don't feel excited about my major, and I have no career plans stemming from it. For a long time I've been telling myself that I'll finish out my degree here and then go to graduate school or something for film, but I really don't feel like that's a good plan. I'm not excited about a majority of my major-related classes, and nothing about working in theatre really thrills me the way it used to. On top of all of that, my relationship with my mother continues to deteriorate, to the point that she's told me she's no longer going to help me pay for school after this year as a way of "teaching me a lesson" (first world problems am I right). I almost transferred to UT over the summer because of how bad it got between my mom and I, but the price really put me off, and I was too scared to move half way across the country by myself to establish residency in Texas.

CUE BAILEY ANGEL FROM MY DREAMS. What started off as kind of a joking conversation about moving to Texas to harass the folks at Roosterteeth into giving us a job turned into us making REAL LIFE PLANS to move to Austin together and be roommates next fall and forever. Now, I'm not dropping out /today/ okay I'm gonna finish out the school year because well my parents have already paid through the end of the year so I might as well not waste their money y'know. The plan for right now is to go down to Austin for RTX this coming summer and while we're there we're gonna look at apartments and visit the UT campus (as that's where I'm hoping to go). If that all goes well, we'll hopefully be able to move down to Austin by the fall of 2014 and work for a year to establish residency and then I'll attend UT as a film major (if I get accepted y'know). Under most circumstances, I would just straight-up transfer to UT, but seeing as their out-of-state tuition is almost double of what in-state tuition is, I think I'd be saving myself money in the long run, especially since I can easily see myself living in Austin for a while.

I can't even begin to explain to you guys how uplifting this whole process has been. I feel happier than I have in a long time, and I actually am genuinely excited about my future for the first time in a long time. I mean for Pete's sake the writer's block I've had for /years/ is starting to go away! I feel so confident in myself now that I have a real life plan for getting out of this rut I've been living in and I can't wait to get started.