"you can know things all you like, but that doesnโt mean you believe them." the war i finally won ย / ย accepting! ย /ย ย @knoworth
thereโs something to be heardย in those words that echoes deep within him, reminding him of things he doesnโt want to hear. she has always had a way with words around him. christ, she knows him better than his own dad knows him, and that speaks volumes as to how much tony is prioritized in his own fatherโs life. some part of him wonders what howard was like beforeย all of this shit. in the times that peggy knewย him. there are old newspapers about the guy, sure, butโโ fuck, man, he hates his dad in a way he thinks he shouldnโt, some days.
โ and thatโs just life, isnโt it? โย forced to grow up too quickly. itโs not a fact heโs keen of reflecting on, because itโs true.ย he remembers, vividly, all the times he realized how heโd never just get to be a kid.ย heโs never been like the others. tony, so gifted, so talented, but just not enoughย at the same time.ย ย โ even if i donโt believe it, it doesnโt cancel out the fact that it isnโt true. you just have to suck it up and deal with it. โย words of a slight pessimistย in any case, and probably not the words she wants to hear out of him. he has struggled. he still does. to what extent, even he doesnโt know, nor does he want to unlock that type of knowledge. leave it where it is, undusted, preferably. stay in that closet.ย ย โ youโd know how that feels, wouldnโt you? โ
