#knifethroughheart

Can a nice guy just come into my life please for once? I'm not asking for much just a guy who will think with his head and not his dick?! Am I setting my standards too high or are my walls too far up that I won't let anyone close enough to let them down for? Ugh, I just want someone to like me for ME and not for my vagina. 🥺🙄😔

It's been an emotional week. Can it get any worse? FML !! 😭😔

Just got back from a hour drive to clear my head, I just drove untill I decided to turn back round and head home! God I miss driving places and exploring new towns and city's! Lock down needs to hurry up and end so I can travel and be happy!!

Nothing worse then looking in the mirror and hating what you see. This past year has taken it's toll on me mentally and physically. Toxic people came into my life, messed me up then left. I turned to alcohol to fix my pain but it only numbed the pain for a short time then it came back. I've put on weight and lost it then put it back on due to not eating then over eating. I've lost a lot of my hair, I went from thick hair on my head to thin and horrible. I just want to feel happy again, I want to wear nice clothes and stop living in leggings and jumpers. I want to wear makeup longer than 10 minutes before I take it off because I hate the way I look. I want to be creative and fun again instead of being depressed and suicidal. I'm hoping that soon I get some good news because I can't keep living like this! I need these covid restrictions lifting so I can see my friends and family, not being able to go see them to have a catch up is killing me, it's the little things that used to keep me sane.