#kittysadposts

i always think im stable abt something till it gets brought up at night and then i get to find out that armor is NOT foolproof and there are indeed weakspots.

im gonna *** <- exaggerating. still feel like shit but would rather mope and cry and bitch about it then doing anything positive or negative to change my situation

when u feel shitty so u do your makeup to at least look put together and then you cry and have to take off your makeup which makes you feel shitty And defeated

goddd d d di just wanna feel Normal like a Normal Human what therapy and medication will Get Me There. when i want something i dont want to be scared of Fear and Dread occuring when im gonna do What ive Wanted. i just wanna be a Human

it feels like i have been through things i just dont remember or havent processed. i have such extreme reactions to a specific genre of thing and im so lost like. did something happen i dont remember? it is a culmination of small things and societal things? why do i react sooo fucking intensely to this genre what is this specific thing to hard for me did i miss an episode of my own life

i dont want to die alone cause im too scared to say something

when ur already dreading today and right off the bat something upsetting and extremely inconvenient happens so you just wanna fucking vanish

really what was the point of saying anything if it changes nothing