#kiraofbajor

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Well, I’m…sorry?  There is no quick way to become a Romulan citizen, especially if you’re not a Romulan.  You can become a part of the Empire, but you wouldn’t be leaving if you did.  And citizenship is very…..costly to say the least.  Not strictly speaking in monetary terms either…

…I see.  It seems odd to me, but I can understand your point.  Especially being that you’re human; humans seem to have no concerns about doing certain things just because they like to.

Sort of makes me realize how much attention we Romulans pay to not standing out in a way that might arouse suspicion or make anyone think of us as eccentric or rebelious.

Hmm… so I could.  In that case, I’d study why so many humans have a desire to change aspects of their natural appearance to make themselves stand out.  I mean—we Romulans do sometimes dye our, yes.  But permanent hair dye is usually only used if one is born with a color of hair that’s rare among Romulans, such as blond or red or (on occasion) white.  You know, to blend in better and avoid discrimination. It’s rumored that the idea was suggested to Commander Sela, but she apparently turned it down as she had made no secret of disowning her human heritage and believed that that should be enough for anyone.

Jolan’tru.  I’m fine.  Somewhat lacking in subjects of study (although I know there are endless amounts when it comes to humans) and hoping my commander hasn’t noticed my…slack, for lack of a better word.  But I’m fine.

Not so much at 14, but definitely into my 20s and even today.  Panic attacks can, for lack of a better word, suck, especially when you can't control them.  But, if you start to learn more about yourself and what triggers these attacks, the easier it gets to control.  If you know that a certain thought or action triggers a panic attack, you'll eventually learn how to talk yourself out of those thoughts and talk yourself into action.  I know it's a lot harder than it sounds (if anybody knows that, it's me), but it really does work.

I'm lucky enough to have a supportive group of friends and family that have been there for me in my worst moments.  It's always a good idea to have at least one person who can maybe talk you down.  These days, if I find myself having a panic attack, I try to focus my attention on something, anything, else - like thinking of my breathing and consciously taking deep, even breaths.

You're right when you say meditation can only get you so far sometimes and it's certainly harder to go through all of this alone. If all else fails, there are counselors and therapists out there that can really help you.  I'm not a doctor, so I don't know what the regulations and rules are about medication, but you should also talk to doctor about that.

Comatose?  No, I haven’t but I’ll look into it.  I do like Skillet; it’s…sort of a guilty pleasure I suppose.