#kinda lost..

However I’m.. not exactly comfortable picking up where I left off? I’ve changed a bit, mentally, and like. My interests aren’t very different, but…. I don’t think I can stomach making the same content I did before. I don’t know that I want it to attached to whatever I do going forward, either. I want to get more into OCs and stuff, if possible.

That said.. I know some of y’all really wanted that old art back. So I’m weighing my options…

I’ve considered making some kind of archive, but idk how to.. twitter frustrates me and feels far too public, given the subject-matter 😔 I may use it going forward but it doesn’t feel like the right place for my old works

I really don't like my husband's dog.... I continue to refer to him as 'his dog' even though we have many other pets because I just don't like him. This dog is mean and he has aggressive tendencies. It was a pound puppy who apparently got fixed too soon and was fighting for food. Aaron had the dog for at least 8 months before we started dating and he spoiled the dog in every possible way. Letting him on the bed, letting him on the couch, giving him human food all the time and giving him empty bags of chips or whatever when he was done with it. This dog got severely attached to Aaron and overly protective. If we bring him to a dog park or if he meets another dog it will be 50/50 on whether he will want to play with the dog or attack it.

I was leery of the dog right away when we dated and always felt like I liked Aaron but I don't like the dog.. but of course I pretended to. However, sometimes he would growl at me and growl at his roommates if they get too close to him if he had a toy or if we touched him while he was on the couch. OH! Yeah... he doesn't like to be touched or cuddled even with Aaron unless it's purely on HIS terms. It's been a over a year and yes, he has gotten better... but not enough to be an awesome dog like I'm used to. I never grew up with pets but I witnessed them at friends and have never had a problem, they were always nice.

Yet, I have been bitten by this dog a couple times, it's always when we're alone and currently we are in the beginning of a month long of being away from Aaron and it's us along with guests that I will be having over later this month. I shouldn't have to be nervous if people come over and how he will react, we shouldn't have to work on his behavior for over a year with no concrete results and I shouldn't be partially afraid of this dog.

Aaron loves the dog. He admits that he kinda regrets getting him, but he still bonds with the dog. I try really hard to set boundaries and have Aaron not spoil him anymore even though I know he continues to do so, and that makes it harder on me because LET'S BE REALISTIC: I am going to be the one who is alone with him the most. I feel like I shouldn't have to deal with this. I wish we could get rid of this dog, honestly. He bit me today after being an asshole outside and constantly barking. I went out to get him and tried leading him inside. I wasn't being too forceful and he was cooperating until we got to the door and then he lunged at my hand. I have bite marks with blood all over my thumb and even hours afterwards it's still bleeding a little and it feels so sore and throbby.

I just don't understand.... I don't know what to do at this point, I really don't like this dog, all of Aaron's friends don't like the dog. I don't want to be scared that he might bite me and something far worse will happen. Or eventually when we have kids! Is he going to be like this around them? He's gotten after each of our animals at least once and I don't know how much I can truly handle.