#kiko.

It is a little hard to believe that is has been over a year since I met Ezra. It has been a little over a year since that night at you guys house and the incident that occurred. It has been just more than a year since we found out we were pregnant with out beautiful little princess. However, today, today marks the one year anniversary since the day you and I promised each other forever. A lifetime together.

In this last year we have faced many hardships that I know I wouldn’t wish upon anyone, but the fact they happened to us makes us a little bit stronger. Finding out we were pregnant, you leaving/ our fight, your accident, re-adapting here at home to your prior life and re-remembering, and now the loss of Ezra. They have all been faith building, love testing, and trust building trials. I know the loss of Ezra is still very new for us and it will take a long time to over come still, but like everything else we have encountered we will over come it.

I once read about an elderly couple and how they were congratulated on 60 years of marriage. When they were asked how they managed to stay together that whole time the wife gave a encouraging smile. She said “When something is broken do you throw it away? Or do you first try to find a way to fix it?” She continued “I come from a generation where anything that breaks opens opportunities for something new, and improved if you only take the time to fix it, and see it for its true potential.”

When I first met you I knew we were connected. I knew we were meant for each other, and something greater than what we already had. I have come to find that I love you and with each passing day it grows more and more.

The day I asked you to marry me was a day I thought would go much differently to be completely honest. I wanted to ask you in early June perhaps the 5th it just felt like the right day. I was going to take you out for lunch, and essentially just have a normal date with you. Then I was going to take you somewhere special. I was going to take you back to the first time I remember meeting you. When I remembered seeing your face, knowing it was you, and I was going to tell you about that time (try and come off as a hopeless romantic type) and I was going to tell you how it made me felt, what I thought, and what I believed. It was then I was going to propose and have Ezra be there ready to take the picture of you saying yes. However, you and I know how I really proposed and even though it wasn’t romantic, or even in an ideal setting you said yes all the same.

I thank god every day that I wake up, and find you still there laying next to me, and each moment I walk into Miyako’s room, and find her there still sleeping like an angel. Our family has become everything I ever hoped for, and more.

This past year has been an unforgettable one and I know I will never forget it. You are the love of my life, and I know that if I were ever to carry on in this life without you there would be no purpose without Miyako. She is our life, and my constant reminder of you. I see you in her eyes when she smiles at me, and there is nothing more I could ever want in this life than to spend it with you, and to watch our baby (potential babies) grow up. ——————————————————————–

“What would I do without your smart mouth. Drawing me in, and you kicking me out. You got my head spinning, no kidding, I can’t pin you down. What’s going on in that beautiful mind. I’m on your magical mystery ride. And I’m so dizzy, don’t know what hit me, but I’ll be alright.

How many times do I have to tell you Even when you’re crying you’re beautiful too. The world is beating you down, I’m around through every mood. You’re my downfall, you’re my muse. My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues. I can’t stop singing, it’s ringing in my head for you.

Cards on the table, we’re both showing hearts. Risking it all though it’s hard.

My head’s underwater. But I’m breathing fine. You’re crazy and I’m out of my mind.

‘Cause all of me Loves all of you Love your curves and all your edges All your perfect imperfections Give your all to me I’ll give my all to you You’re my end and my beginning Even when I lose I’m winning Cause I give you all of me And you give me all of you, oh Give me all of you, oh oh” –John Legend

——————————————————————- Happy One Year Kiko. I love you with all my heart, mind, body, and soul. May we live, and love till the end of time.

Koishiteru, –Hjärta