Cause babe, itâs you
Yoongi x oc
Genre : Angst, fluff
Summary : Yoongi is stressed over othersâ expectations of him and you try to calm him down and remind him his worth.
Word count : 900+ words
A/N : I found this in my drafts and i think itâs complete on its own. I for sure had written this after âShadowâ was released and well, so much time has passed but i had yet to post it. So here it is. IâM FINALLY POSTING SOME OF MY WORK!!! I really hope that someone will read this! I feel like this is like a short letter i would write to Yoongi to read if he ever feels down and critical of his work as an artist. Have fun!
The fear was evident in his voice, in his posture. Stress eating him alive. The conversation wasnât going well until now. You had let him express his fears but you knew he was stronger than them, he could fight these thoughts.
âNo, please, hear me outâ you cut his train of thought âLet me finish, please, babeâ You felt his hand squeezing yours and his eyes staring straight to your heart. His head nodding a small yes. âItâs scary now, yes. If you werenât scared, you would be arrogant, which youâre not, none of your team is, or you would ignore the success you have already made. Your progress is unbelievable. Iâve seen your journey and I know how few people believed in you and how even fewer even imagined such a bliss. But that doesnât mean that now is necessarily your peak. Your journey hasnât ended yetâ
âBut the expectations -â he tried to continue his rambling through trembling lips.
âScrew them, baby. Screw the expectations, screw the people, screw everyone.â you replied louder.
âYou donât understandâ he told you as he tried to lift himself up to leave. You couldnât let him go in such a state, it was a sure thing you could help him get out of this mess.
âBabe, you said you would let me finish and I still havenât gotten to my point.â With this, he sat back down reluctantly. âWhat are you doing? Youâre working. And youâre seriously overworking yourself, but letâs not get to that now. Iâm sure itâs more than just work, itâs your life, and I understand and completely support you on that. But humans have the right to work. Itâs not your responsibility. You have deliberately chosen to work, you want to do this, to make your life full filing, to pursue your dreams.â With this, you got him to look back at you.
âWho are you doing this for? Youâre not doing this for the people, for your family, for the charts or the awards, for the fans. Maybe all of them came along the way. But you are the start and the end of you. Youâre doing this for you. Because you love music and you get to express yourself through the art of it. And youâre doing it so good.â With that you took his hand back in yours.
âNo awards or charts or whatever achievements can measure your worth. Because you inspire people, Yoongi. You inspire people to be better. To follow their hearts and do what they want to. To think. To live. People listen to your music and feel free. And the ARMYs. They love you so so much. Because you are their friend. You are their voice in society. You are the shoulder they cry on. You are their friend who makes them laugh and smile even in the hardest of times.â He could hear your sincerity. His bottom lip started trembling again.
âAnd i can imagine that youâre a celebrity after being an artist and itâs exhausting living like this, feeling like youâre always being watched. But babe, youâre just a human. Your limits make you human. Your flaws make you human. Your mistakes make you human. And all of these make you just beautiful. Cause babe, itâs you.â
His eyes started to water at that last sentence and before he could replied you took both his hands in yours and kissed them, first on the back and then on the palm.
âI know itâs hard right now. And itâs been hard before. And itâs going to be hard in the future too. I canât promise you thatâs itâs not. But what i can and will promise you is that youâll have me. And the team. And the armys. And most importantly, you. Youâll always have you. And the next time youâll have endured another hardship that was on your way and youâre going to be even stronger.â You hadnât left his hands all this time and now you just shook them left and right like two kids playing. âI know you will.â
Yoongi was the person that has gotten you through some very dark times. Maybe he wasnât always good with talking, processing and expressing emotions, but he was always there for you, when you needed him. And now it was your time to be there for him.
Silent tears had wetted his cheeks. He was never the crying type but this time his stress had to be released somehow and this was the only way. You touched his cheeks, wiping the tears. He brought his hands up and held yours, kissing your right palm.
When he spoke, his voice was hoarse. âThank youâ. Simple and honest. You brought yourself closer to him and hugged him tightly. His face resting on your shoulder. It felt like your arms were made to be around him. His arms holding you tightly by the waist was a feeling so familiar and warm. It felt like home.
Letting you go, only for you to look each other in the eyes again, âI canât imagine being without youâ he spoke softly.
âWell you donât have to, cause Iâm right here, with no plans to go awayâ you smiled and pecked his lips.
Nothing but a small peck seemed just perfect at the moment. Simple and honest.
âI love youâ. His words were quiet but clear.
âI love you, too, babeâ you responded and suggested sleeping, which was happily welcomed by the black-haired boy.
