the ocd/anxiety/whatever the fuck I have is so weird just in the things it chooses to be anxious about. Because otherwise I am not a very careful person. Not because Iām like some thrill seeker, I just donāt tend to realize I should be scared of things until afterwards.
so like, I will have a panic spiral about drinking out of a water bottle that I havenāt drank out of in a while but I also will eat any food a stranger gives me.
I will constantly reread text messages because Iām worried I accidentally said something slightly riskĆ© and didnāt notice but I will talk about cannibalism to anybody who asks and most people who dont
If my hands go anywhere near the top of a garbage can I need to wash them and then spit into the sink until I feel clean but I also regularly walk around on my hands in the woods and then forget to wash them before I eat food
itās so fucking weird why. Why does this happen.
