Why is it always me? I know I'm just a joke to most kids and adults, I get that my brother is a shithead, I know my poor sister needs to just get out, but what about me?
I've never involved myself, they've never pulled me into it, why the fresh fuck do I get the ass ends? My poor sis doesnt ever deserve it, my asshole brother deserves it half the time at least, but what about me? I know I cant judge that myself, but why does it feel more wrong than Lucifer getting shunned?
It still hurts, every time. I dont know why me, but... I know how to deal with it. Have known for a long time. But it still hurts like nothing else.
They always forget, except that one. He's blonde too, I thought it was a blondie thing, haha... No... It's just... Him, for some reason. I wish it was my sister, or my own damn mother. Not... Him... He... He doesnt deserve it, any of it. He's bad off as a single child with horrid parents, he doesnt need memories of me biting the dust every other week alongside it.
I'm.. Still happy to have at least someone, at least one person to talk to. Guess there's that, yea?
