#keep feeling

The only freedom I can even fathom ever attaining is that of which I know there is another who wants me too. And that the fear of myself isn't present. That's the ultimate freedom. But I never quite get there. And I'm getting really indifferent about things as time passes today. And now I just want to disappear. Be in some sunshine and have some music and just day dream. That sounds like a lovely plan. And to see windmills. But none of that. Not today. Or maybe later. After dad leaves. I could go alone. To see the windmills. I'd be happy enough. In theory. Ugh now I'm talking myself out of that idea. I just need to keep moving. Time to go jog.