#katiauna

Crying is so important; it helps us to cope with all the feelings we have no way of processing otherwise. Just because you cry alone does not mean you are alone. We must each of us address our feelings, good, bad, crushing, etc. Even happy events can overwhelm us; crying is healthy. I will face this life with eyes that sparkle from the tears they shed. I love endlessly; I hurt endlessly, yet I know whom I trust, He is with us always. Ka'tiauna's mom #forever14 6-22-21 #katiauna #sayiloveyou #lifeisfragile #suicidesurviver https://www.instagram.com/p/CZ-TjLNvhAD/?utm_medium=tumblr

Ka'tiauna, you have always been part of me; you will always be part of me. In the silence of my cries, in the hidden screams of my heart, you are with me. As your mother, I will carry you into all the tomorrow of this life. Till we meet again. #katiauna #sayiloveyou #forever14 #suicidesurviver #lifeisfragile #bendnotbreak #bendnotbreaktour https://www.instagram.com/p/CYLwf-prJDH/?utm_medium=tumblr

6 months 26 weeks 182 days A lifetime to go, eternity is waiting. ⏳️ Seconds tick by as the minutes, hours, days, weeks, and now months drown me in a sea of shattered dreams.  This fractured reality has given birth to a me I never thought possible, she has faced pain, anguish, loss, anger, grief, and taught me about love, patience, hope, forgiveness, gentleness, faith and longsuffering.  Most days slip by in silence while I scream in my mind.  Some days, the fog is so thick that my heart is lost to me.  All of the days since have been filled with love for you.  https://youtu.be/l31xRa0CDlo ~Hilary Weeks "This Isn't Goodbye" I wasn′t ready to let you go But heaven was calling Calling you home The distance between us is deep as the sky But I still feel you close In the quiet moments when I'm alone When the tears won′t stop and it hurts to the bone You'll be right here in my heart When my heart is in pieces and I can't catch my breath I still know This isn't goodbye I will see you again It feels like it might be But it isn′t the end, not the end You′ll be right here in my heart Everyday of my life This isn't goodbye This isn′t goodbye When I close my eyes I see your face It's just one of those things that time couldn′t erase You'll be in my dreams and you′ll be on my mind 'Till that glorious day This isn't goodbye I will see you again It feels like it might be But it isn′t the end, not the end You′ll be right here in my heart Everyday of my life This isn't goodbye This isn′t goodbye This is 'see you soon I can′t wait for the day We'll make up for the moments we were away′ And it will feel almost like we were never apart Cause after this life I know I'll be right where you are This isn't goodbye I will see you again It feels like it might be But it isn′t the end, not the end You′ll be right here in my heart Everyday of my life This isn't goodbye This isn′t goodbye Ooh You'll be right here in my heart Mmm. everyday of my life This isn′t goodbye This isn't goodbye #katiauna #sayiloveyou #forever14 #suicidesurviver #lifeisfragile #brokenheart #Jesustakethewheel #familiesareeternal #love #thisisnotgoodbye https://www.instagram.com/p/CXyV3FZlShl/?utm_medium=tumblr

Suicide is NOT selfish "When a person dies by suicide, they leave behind an enormous amount of pain for their loved ones. As a result, many people believe the deceased acted selfishly, without consideration for the effects on others. However, this belief is one of the most harmful myths about suicide." https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/think-act-be/202003/is-suicide-really-selfish-act #katiauna #forever14 #sayiloveyou #lifeisfragile #suicidesurviver #familiesareforever https://www.instagram.com/p/CXu0BbGLs3v/?utm_medium=tumblr

Ka'tiauna's first birthday party, and the last birthday dinner we got to celebrate the joy Ka'tiauna brought with her and filled our hearts with love, caring, serving one another You're shattered Like you've never been before The life you knew In a thousand pieces on the floor And words fall short in times like these When this world drives you to your knees You think you're never gonna get back To the you that used to be Tell your heart to beat again Close your eyes and breathe it in Let the shadows fall away Step into the light of grace Yesterday's a closing door You don't live there anymore Say goodbye to where you've been And tell your heart to beat again Beginning Just let that word wash over you It's alright now Love's healing hands have pulled you through So get back up, take step one Leave the darkness, feel the sun 'Cause your story's far from over And your journey's just begun Tell your heart to beat again Close your eyes and breathe it in Let the shadows fall away Step into the light of grace Yesterday's a closing door You don't live there anymore Say goodbye to where you've been And tell your heart to beat again Let every heartbreak And every scar Be a picture that reminds you Who has carried you this far 'Cause love sees farther than you ever could In this moment heaven's working Everything for your good Tell your heart to beat again Close your eyes and breathe it in Let the shadows fall away Step into the light of grace Yesterday's a closing door You don't live there anymore Say goodbye to where you've been And tell your heart to beat again Your heart to beat again Beat again Oh, so tell your heart to beat again https://youtu.be/OrKc459IFTk #katiauna #sayiloveyou #lifeisfragile #brokenheart #forever14 #familiesareforever #suicidesurviver https://www.instagram.com/p/CVhM3NAl6yN/?utm_medium=tumblr

For Ka'tiauna's 15th birthday and 1st Heavenly birthday, help me honor her by donating before the 31st. Use the hashtags #katiauna #givethegiftoflife #suicidesurviver #forever14 If I only knew this was the last birthday dinner we would have with you 💔 #bendnotbreak #sayiloveyou #lifeisfragile https://www.instagram.com/p/CVLqJ6KhSOG/?utm_medium=tumblr

Caring for 4 sick kids while feeling sick myself would have been horrible had it not been for Brandon @garignack he has cooked, corraled kids, gotten them to drink acetaminophen. When he is here I feel so loved so cared for. He sends the loneliness birds away. Gracias mí amor 💖 Our littles baffle me so much lol their fever goes up to 101.5 we give them acetaminophen and it comes down to 99.5 then right back up to 102.4 then the fevers will just stop and we think we are in the clear, but no, a day later IT'S BACK. 🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️🙇🏾‍♀️🙏🙏🙏 They do have so much fun playing magnatiles with them and them of course the inevitable tickle fest. #katiauna #sayiloveyou #lifeisfragile #brokenheart #forever14 #familiesareforever #gratefulheart #Jesustakethewheel #suicidesurviver https://www.instagram.com/p/CVKIVkIL7CM/?utm_medium=tumblr

Accountability post: We went in to get tested just to be on the safe side. My kiddos were so cute in the cranky "I'm not tired" moods. They all got in a few naps so that helped. I'll update when the results come in. #katiauna #sayiloveyou #lifeisfragile #brokenheart #forever14 #familiesareforever #gratefulheart #Jesustakethewheel #intentionallyintentional #suicidesurviver #bendnotbreaktour https://www.instagram.com/p/CU4JzNoLNYC/?utm_medium=tumblr