#karenwright

This is like the second part of the kiss I painted

it’s  a  pale  smile  that  is  brought  on  by  karen's  innocent  inquiry,  simple  &  faithless:  she  has  a  complex  relationship  with  the  word  confident.    while  the  conviction  that  she  has  for  her  work  and  her  research  is  near  impenetrable,  as  it  ought  to  be,  less  can  be  said  for  the  semblance  of  self - belief  that  she  possesses.    it’s  easy  to  brush  off  the  expectations  and  opinions  of  people  when  you  are  steadfast  in  your  views,  when  you  are  breaking  all  kinds  of  new  grounds  in  your  field    –    there  is  far  more  to  life  than  simply  aiming  to  please  people,  to  follow  their  methods  and  procedures  to  a  tee,  to  recreate  that  which  is  almost  prosaic  by  now.    the  difficulty  is  channeling  that  same  energy  inwards,  to  dedicating  the  entirety  of  your  being  to  accepting  and  revelling  and  enjoying.    the  line  between  personal  and  professional  is  so  clearly  demarcated  for  wendy,  and  for  good  reason  at  that.    the  less  people  who  know  the  difference,  the  better.                “        only  when  i  have  reason  to  be.        ”                reply  comes  in  the  form  of  a  quiet  murmur,  and  in  her  expression  lies  a  quiet  postscript:  which  is  often.