#kaoru-chizuru

I live a life of lies. I wear a mask of makeup covering a skin of deceit and envy in front of you. I add a thicker layer day after day of concealer and blush over my self-hatred, guilt and hideousness. Do I look flawless? Do I look good enough to be with you? I smile a pretty yet worthless smile. My rosy lips stretch across my pale white cheeks, disguising my rotten black interior. It doesn't matter how much blood is spilled or how much you hate me. As long as I can be with you nothing else matters.

While you laughed all day, I'd cry all night. While you regretted nothing, I looked back at everything. While you forgot everything, I remembered everything. While you fixed other hearts, I looked at mine that was torn apart. While you spent your time enjoying your life, I spent every moment longing for you to be mine.