#kaitosham

Totally random but omfg does it make my day when I follow a fandom blog/ rp blog and they reblog awesome stuff that makes me soooooo hype. Like, you go guys! you are awesome and keep doin what ur doin!

It's getting to the point where I can't stand tumblr anymore.....

So hard to not kill myself currently- it's all I can think about, oh how many pills would it take? Then I wonder if anyone online that knows me would notice really? I'm usually the overlooked one anyways right?

Okay no offense but idk how to mark something for a tag so I can't see it but this blackout stuff is getting old fast, I want to scroll thru my followed people's posts and look at their fandom stuff not badly taken selfies of some movement that people are doing. Like cool do ur thing but just putting that out there, also sorry for spamming deus ex but I get so hype

College is getting to the point where I can't afford it at all and no one will hire me it seems, then my dad yells at me for not being able to get fafsa to help pay for it. Like.... If things dont get better I'm better off killing myself so I'm not a burden anymore. I really want to go to school for biomedical engineering but it seems so far out of reach financially.... I feel so fucking useless like I'm just a big failure. Though not that any of Yall care about my ramblings right? So I'll just go back to reblogging things.

I mourn the loss of a follower...... Pls dun leave me I notice and care for all of you ;-; I srsly don't know what to reblog about most of the time to satisfy y'all u-u