#kaitey

Guess I’ll just stumble on home to my cats.. alone.. unless you wanna come along?

@taylorswift How do you pronounce your mom’s name?

Hey, I’m Kaitey. Last year I began having health issues that caused me to lose over half of my body weight and vomit everything I put into my mouth. I survived on chicken broth and occasionally small pieces of plain steamed chicken for over six months. I became anorexic. This was something I struggled with as I was not forcing myself to throw up my food, it just happened. During that time, I had to maintain school as a premed student and working as a paramedic. While in these environments I constantly have to deal with people telling me “I wish I had that issue.” No, you don’t. You don’t want to spend your nights with your face in the toilet. At home, I deal with emotional abuse on a daily basis that has caused crippling anxiety. All of this combined led to me getting clinically diagnosed with depression. I began to feel embarrassed by this. I was always known as the fun loving and outgoing girl. Nobody would take me seriously if I told them. On top of that, I have arthritis in both of my knees from numerous soccer injuries over the years.

Flash forward to now, I’ve only gained 4 pounds back despite efforts to gain more. My doctor told me if I didn’t gain any more I’d be getting a feeding tube placed to force me to eat. I see him next month, we’ll see how that goes. I am still battling my depression. Some days are better than others with that. I’m trying to fight it without taking medication for as long as I can. Taking medication isn’t bad, depression is just something I am hoping to overcome without it. I’ve also been told by my doctor that I’m on the spectrum. This came as a huge shock to me but looking at it from a different perspective, it makes sense.