my job laid me off with no warning during the holidays, job hunting is soul sucking, my last living grandparent is rapidly declining in health in a place we cannot travel to because my mom is severely immunocompromised, I spent the last month with my hands basically melded into fists because of a weird nerve damage thing and have only recently got them functional again, cumulatively I'm in the worst self esteem/mental place I've been since 2020, if someone tells me I'm a good friend I start crying, my girlfriend of like two years dumped me via discord dm, and I have a zine piece due tomorrow that like. while im excited about it I had to completely redo all the work I did down to the lineart in under a week because it wasn't dynamic enough and the colors were awful and im still working on shading and I just want to be done with it.