#justthrowingthisoutthere

Gate: am I the only one who is feeling all alone

I want to be beautiful. Not Beautiful physically but intellectually. I want to know things and have a thirst for learning that is never quenched and i don't want to have to meet standards or live up to anything when it comes to that. I want to learn about my world, culture, religion, languages, and experience so much.I also don't wanna be some know it all ass hole. i Want to be that cheesy cliche artistic type where i feel the world in a new way. See beauty in insignificant things like rain, mountains, warm drinks, forests. I want to feel the sun on my skin and the grass beneath me and that feeling to sink into my soul and engulf me. I just want to be able to see the beauty in breathing and my imperfections. I want to feel life like i never have before and love it. Maybe this makes me weird and no one will understand because i can't communicate it ,but someday I'll be beautiful.