#justinfoley

I AM SO SORRY, I AM GOING TO HELL, SEE YOU THERE

Not to romanticize anything, I'm just trying to make a joke. Not working clearly. This is me at 10 pm...

CHAPTER ONE: "When dark meets the light"

It was a sunny day in Evergreen. Liberty High students started a new school year. Among them is Justin Foley, whose life has slowly taken to be colorful since Clay's parents adopted him. You might think that everything will be fine now. You are wrong. Justin Foley is still surrounded by darkness. The darkness was so great that it slowly covered his heart, and Justin every day stopped knowing what love is and how to love another person. 

What is love? Something that should makes our heart happy, and Justin had a different opinion. He thought that no one would be able to love him, that no one would be able to accept that he is a fucking junkie. His life revolved only around heroin. He promised to Jensen's family that he would change. He didn't want to let them down. He talked to Clay and Zach in the school corridor, leaning against his locker. He looked happy, but it was just a mask he put on, so that nobody would see his suffering. Justin was absorbed in listening to what Zach did during the summer. He paid no attention to anything except Zach's story.

And then she appeared. She crossed the threshold of the building, and a delicate draft caused by the open door blew her hair. Dressed in a simple floral dress, she walked down the school corridor. A thought in head prompted Justin to look that way. He saw her. He saw her graceful movements, and his heart began to beat as if it was about to jump out of his chest. Zach laughed at his friend's reaction to the mysterious girl. Clay sighed, instructing him not to get into relationships so easily this time because he had to focus on himself.

What did Justin Foley do? He didn't care at all about his brother's words and approached the girl, picking up her things from the floor when she bumped into one of the high school students. He waited until she looked at him. He waited until she noticed that he is interested in her. It happened. She looked at him. Justin couldn't look away from her. Up close, she was even more beautiful. She looked like like a goddess. "Mysterious girl, I want to know your name. I want to know every bit of you" he thought as the girl smiled at him.

"You must be a little more prudent. Otherwise, everyone will be lying down at the corridor." He laughed a little, hoping that it will also improve her mood a little bit. "I'm Justin. Justin Foley, and you? You must be new here, right?"

The new girl seemed to be apparently interested in Justin. She stared at him for a long moment.

"I'm Stella Mitchell, nice to meet you. Yes, I moved to Evergreen a few days ago" she told her new friend.

Justin Foley smiled slightly.

"In case you need help or something..." he scratched his neck. - "I'm here."

Clay suddenly interrupted them.

"Man, are you going to pick up some defenseless girl? You barely finish last class, so you have to focus on studying." he said and slightly pushing Justin away from Stella, that they could go to class.

"SEE YOU LATER, STELLA MITCHELL" Justin screamed to Stella and waved lightly at her.

As it turned around later, Justin and Stella were in one group at all lessons, which makes our footballer happy.  He devoted his attention only to her, only she mattered to him. He stared at her and focused on her every move. He stared as she touched her beautiful and long brown hair. He stared while she was focused on listening to the teacher and he stared as she reading a note from the book. He was fascinated in her, Clay and Zach were surprised that Justin Foley focused on one person for the first time. Why for the first time? You know Justin, and you know perfectly well that he usually preferred one-night stands.  He did this because he never knew what love was. He didn't fell it because of his parents, who didn't show him what real love is.  I will not call Justin emotionless, because he's not. I will simply call him a man who doesn't know how to love. 

Now you probably think it will the same with Stella. Well now, you're wrong again. Clay perfectly noticed the light in Justin's eyes and his fascination. Clay knew that Stella could be the one who would change Justin's life.

But Justin didn't know yet what Stella is hiding, he didn't know that her heart was in disarray. And how I know it? She lived next to me with her parents and sometimes I have opportunity to hear their conversations in the garden. I also heard the painful one. 

They talked about someone like Katie, and as it turned out later, she was Stella's little sister. She died in a car accident when she returned from a ballet school with her best friend and her parents. They also died. A terribly painful tragedy. 

However, if we looked at it more closely, we could see that Stella and Justin have one thing in common. Ache. Terrible ache that hurts their hearts. Justin lost his biological mother, and Stella lost her sister.

Now let's get back to Justin. Let's focus on how devoted he becomes to Stella. Will he become addicted to her as much as he is addicted to heroin? He doesn't even focus on the lesson, his heart goes crazy and his body shudders. He doesn't even focus on what's going on about him.  Can we call him romantic with a broken heart? Romantic with hidden pain? Of course we can, so from now on Justin Foley will be called a suffering romantic. 

     Hey, it’s Emily. Don’t adjust your, whatever device you’re hearing this on. It’s me, live and in writing. No return engagements, no encore, and this time, absolutely no requests. Get a snack, settle in because I’m about to tell you the story of my life. More specifically, why this cursed show ruined my life. 

     Do the names Zach and Alex ring a bell? In fact, I have not stopped thinking about how these two fools were so beautifully set up to be the best couple in the show since that horrid day of June 5, 2020. As a matter of fact, Zach and Alex are literally the show’s most popular ship, yet they still were not endgame. Let’s throw in gRaNoLa CaMp cOoKiEs guy at the last minute. Listen, I love Charlie, he’s my bi baby, but it’s like his only personality trait is baking and annoying Alex. Like Alex literally said the words “If I say yes will these stop” in response to Charlie’s promposals. I have been an avid Zalex shipper since 2018, so you can imagine my disappointment towards the wasted potential we were dealt with this season. First of all, Zach did not teach Alex how to slow dance in season two just for them to not slow dance together at prom?? Did Ross Butler get into a fight with the writers or something, because why all that build up for NOthing? Can we also talk about how Alex murdered someone because they threatened Zach’s life? Can we also talk about how Alex almost drowned alone in season one, while in season four Zach saves him from drowning in the lake. The writers really had us thinking they were gonna kiss again, but then the scene just arbutedly ends? Can we talk about how Zach had to leave a room because Alex and Charlie were there? Maybe we can talk about how Zach is “not” in love with Alex, even though Alex was the one to break away from the kiss while Zach had his eyes closed with a dreamy look on his face. Ooh, I always love thinking about how Alex had no problem having Zach help him back in his cane days, but when Tony and Clay made an effort to walk his way to see if he needed help it cursed them out. We can also talk about the “Why are you with me and not with Charlie?” scene because I wonder why Zach would get so angry at his “best friend” hanging out with him like that if there was not more behind it. We can have the discussion of how Alex literally confessed his love to Zach in front of his boyfriend, with Zach adding in “it was a nice kiss” while staring Charlie down cuz that’s some funny bf shit. Actually, maybe we should be talking about how Charlie literally laughed when Monty told him Alex tried to kill himself and Zach had to step in. Yes, it makes sense for Charlie to laugh considering Monty’s is a scary little shit. Speaking of Monty, can we talk about how his gaydar was on point? Now I’m not one to brag, but I too both called Monty and Alex not being straight since season one, but let’s not get off track here. Monty called Alex a word that I am not gonna repeat in this essay for obvious reasons, but he also referred to Alex as Zach’s boyfriend. Again, I’m a big Charlie St. George fan, but when he smiled to alex at prom, my mans deadass said out loud “I’ll never be happy”. Like?? Anyways, maybe we can talk about how Alex started describing Zach when he was talking to the webcam girl. The more obvious shit being when Alex literally got a boner after trying to drop kick Zach, when was in the middle of a fight and stopped to help Alex up, or how Zach asks to hang out with Alex every 2108318 seconds. Or how Winston starts rambling on about why he’s in love with Alex and Zach goes like “yeah…”. We can also have the discussion about how, now this one is my favorite folks, Zach literally looked like he wanted to die when Charlie and Alex were holding hands at Monet’s. The moral of the story, is that there are many conversations to be had about Zach and alex. All in all, It just does not make sense for Zach and alex to go through what they did just for some random ass cookie generator boy to ruin it. I do have to admit, the prom scene made many many points, but it shouldve been ZACH!1!1 Ultimately, the only thing I got out of season four was that Alex settled for someone else because he thought Zach did not feel the same, when in reality, Zach had only realized he did too late.

     The next and final reason why this show has ruined my life is because of Justin foley. Do I even have to explain this one? Zach and Alex at least have potential to get together in the future, while Justin is gone forever. Fictional deaths are usually sad for me in general. I will usually tear up, maybe shed a tear or two, but for Justin mf Foley, I sobbed. I sobbed for the person that had the best character development known to man. I sobbed for the person that was homeless, lost himself to drugs, to then find his people and his happiness.  I don’t want to talk too much about his death because we all know how sad that was. Justin survived so much. Not only did he have to watch himself struggle because of drugs, he had to watch his mom to do so. His character development is the best I have ever seen. In particular, his development with Clay. Justin went from wanting him dead in season one, to calling him his brother in season four. The scene where Clay says goodbye to Justin especially hurts because it shows how Clay has learned how important it is to tell the people you love that you love them while they are still here. He almost died thinking that he had ruined Jess’ life. He knew he wasn’t feeling well on prom night, but still went for Jess. His and Jess’ relationship had always been a favorite of mine. They were at times on and off again, but you always knew they would ultimately end up together. Justin’s life was finally starting to go good for him. He had a family that loves him and he was going to college, and then his mother died and he relapsed. Justin Foley deserved to live a happy life in college, with Jess and Clay, with his best friend Zach, etc. He deserved a happy ending, period. And don’t even get me started on the scene where Clay reads Justin’s college letter. They both saved each others lives at one point or another, and who would have thought it would end like this. “He’s the reason I’m alive in the first place to write this essay because he’s my good influence. He’s my brother” is a scene that perfectly describes the sobbing chef’s kiss emoji. But enough with the sad because Justin Foley lived. While he knew what it was like to truly feel alone and helpless in this world, he also knew what it was like to feel loved and wanted. 

I'm not talking from experience at all.