5 1/2 years later...(this gets good)
I’m baaaaaaack. Not sure for how long, but I have a life update that realllllly takes the cake (relatively speaking...your lives are very important and they matter).
5 1/2 years after being diagnosed with HSV2, received from my boyfriend at the age of 23 (first boyfriend, first time having sex, doing all the things, etc.) - that same man, my now-husband, did the following:
1. Told me out of the blue that he’s not happy with his life and doesn’t love me or know if he wants to be with me
2. Had an affair and didn’t tell me - I found out when I stumbled across receipts and photos - and he was waiting to tell me for our 1st therapy session after he dropped the “I don’t love you and I haven’t for a long time” bomb. Oh yeah, and he has feelings for her. Great.
3. Promised he wouldn’t see her (this woman who has my SAME NAME) while we’re figuring this out; that was a lie (mind you, he promised this both to me numerous times this week AND our therapist - yesterday. Just hours later, I was driving around, saw his truck at a motel, text/called to confront him, and his side piece got my number from him and started threatening me. He never came out.
4. Told me part of the reason he stayed with me when he didn’t want to (and didn’t want to marry me) - because HE FELT SO AWFUL about giving me herpes and taking my virginity (which is a concept I don’t believe in) in a really fucked up way.
SO - my husband, my partner of 6 years, attributes “hanging in there” and “holding out hope that love would grow” TO THE HERPES HE GAVE ME 5 1/2 YEARS AGO.
ANYONE ELSE get fucked over like this? Real question. Up until yesterday I considered working on this relationship - forgiving him, seeking my own therapy so I could trust him again. Now idgaf. I’m done.
Friends, I hope life has treated you better. But I promise you - I’m going to be really fucking fine without him.
