Embrace
I am sitting and listening songs as i browse through some pictures in my laptop. I am seeing a picture of a place where i first met her at an event. The current has started to flow in my brain and here it is, a connection has been created, a memory has been triggered. Flash back moment. As the moment ends i am thinking of her. It’s been two days i have not heard from her. I am lonely, i feel alone. She is the only one person completing me, the one who makes me feel alive, one who has opened the door to a beautiful world, that i didn’t know co-existed with a horrible world i lived in, for me. I miss her. It’s been around more than 22 times i have checked my phone for a call or a text from her. But i find nothing. It really hard for me to hold myself together sometimes when she is not around me. Although she has opened the door to happiness, she has kept the key for herself so it could be opened only by her. I don’t feel like i am wrong in loving her, missing her and neither is she in feeling just the opposite of what i do. I can understand she might have been busy for these two days as i was too. She do not owe me anything, she don’t have to life her life on my terms, she will decide to talk to me or not, to think of me or not, who am i to decide for her or to ask her to do so. All i can do is just suffer in silence and let the poison of loneliness and unexpressed emotions do its job to kill me slowly. I have to brace myself for time to come, its not going to be any easier on me. I have chosen a road paved of burning coal and thorns, on which i have to walk bare feet for endless miles and i have come too far to even know where i started and go back. I am going to keep walking till i find my destination or burn down to ashes, let the stars play their games and hope for a better tomorrow where i enthral the one who possesses the key.
