#just......................

i just really need to spill my feelings again today’s a blown mess, I did no art today, a friend told me how she tried to attempt suicide, and just.. I odn’t know. All of this happened just all today. It feels like im sitting here with this mess of a emotion on my lap and just?? oof. Now something happened in my server that caused someone to leave (i mean -- if you dont feel safe in a server thats your right and i am in no way saying that they shouldnt have left because!!! if you dont feel safe or happy then I’d feel better if you were more comfortable) and I’m extremely worried I did something?? or atleast someone else in my server,,,,,,,,,, and im just extremely paranoid of another cry session. now anytime i post venting stuff and it gets seen i have this?? reaction of “oh no they know im not happy thats not okay i must be happy” and its like second hand embarrassment. cmon emotions get a hold of yourself.