#just-fin3

Part the sea that seperates you from me

Everything you're feeling is common, even though you've never felt so alone

I used to think that I lost pieces of myself from high school that I loved. Lately I've been thinking, and am starting to realize that not all that's it's true. I was that girl in HS who chose friendships over relationships. I always told myself that usually they didn't last, especially that young. I watched friends go through it, toss me away, and then get dumped. I never wanted that kind of heart break, and I mean over losing friends. I never wanted there to come a day where I let romantic partners comes before friends. Flashforward to present day, and I am still that girl. I can't tell you how many friends no longer converse with me because it's all about their S/Os. And I won't lie, it hurts, a lot. I lost my best friend that way. He came back, three years later, but nevertheless, he came back. I get it, the cupcake phase is amazing, and maybe part of it is because I see my bf once a week because of distance. But regardless, I would never just cut people off bc of that. I understand that friendships are not only just for fun, but bc gosh forbid anything ever happened to us, I'd need friends to lean on. I can't tell you how many times people have broken up with their partner, just to run back to me crying, and then do it again. A prime example is when my house burnt down. All of a sudden people came out of their hiding places to comfort me.