Heroin made me feel sexy. Made me feel like I could do whatever I wanted without my mind making me feel weird about it. Where I normally don’t have any self confidence, it gives me tons! Sober, I’m full of anxiety and depression. I don’t speak a lot because I don’t want to look like a fool. On heroin, I didn’t care about looking like a fool or not! I was full of outgoing self confidence. And at the same time I just feel great. Sure my nose itches, whatever. Eventually if I slow down I’ll start to nod, whatever.

But they never tell you about the withdrawals, the money it’ll eventually cost, the abscesses, the infections, and the complete despair, the shame, the isolation, the ruined relationships, having no control, and now that needle can’t even make you pretend to love yourself anymore. It just makes your body not feel like it’s ripping its self apart for 6 hours.