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Plot: You and xikers are at the same comeback show / joint interview. With cameras, other idols, and hosts around, small gestures, reflexes, and âtoo naturalâ reactions unintentionally give your relationship away.
ááᢠMinjae
During the interview while everyone is taking turns speaking, you try to adjust your skirt while sitting. The camera cuts to Minjae at that exact moment. He instinctively looks over, his eyes following your movement as if he canât help it.While the host keeps talking, Minjae pulls his microphone a little closer, and you accidentally catch his gaze. A small smile slips onto his face.Then he quickly returns to a serious expression, but itâs already too lateâthe camera has caught it.Without you noticing, he leans slightly and murmurs:âAre you okay?âHis voice is lowered, but fans who read lips already catch it.You nod and try to act normal: âYes, I just adjusted my sitting position.âBut Minjaeâs gaze lingers a second too long. This is not a ânormal colleague look.âAfter the interview, backstage, he turns to you: âAt that moment⌠I forgot the cameras were there.âYou laugh, but he stays serious. âI didnât.â
ááᢠJunmin
During the interview, everyone is laughing, the host makes a joke, and the atmosphere is relaxed. While youâre speaking, Junmin keeps glancing at you and accidentally pulls his microphone closer.As you talk, you let out a small laugh and turn your head slightly. At that moment, Junmin instinctively tries to finish your sentenceâbut stops himself.But that half-second of âtoo natural harmonyâ gets caught on camera anyway.Even the host notices but changes the topic.Later, Junmin whispers to you:âWeâre speaking in the same rhythm⌠thatâs bad.âYou: âThatâs normal.âJunmin smiles slightly:âItâs not normal at all.ââŚbut his ears are red because he realized heâs gotten too used to you.
ááᢠSumin
Sumin looks calm throughout the interview, but keeps subtly angling his microphone toward you whenever you speak. You donât notice, but the camera catches it several times.At one point, while the host moves on to another topic, you tuck your hair behind your ear. Sumin automatically reaches out and hands you a small water bottle.He does it without thinking.The room goes quiet for a moment because it feels like a âhabitual action.âYou take it: âThank you.âSumin immediately corrects himself:âI give one to everyone.âBut his voice is not convincing.After the interview, without looking at you: âLetâs act like we didnât notice that.â
ááᢠJinsik
Jinsik is usually relaxed, but while youâre speaking, he reacts subtly to your wordsânodding, smiling, adjusting his micâŚAt one point, the host says something funny and everyone laughs. You lean back slightly. Jinsik instinctively places his arm on the back of your chairâa very âprotective boyfriendâ gesture.But the moment he realizes it, he freezes.You notice too.Both of you quickly adjust your positions at the same time.Even the host pauses briefly.Jinsik whispers: âWe need to kill these reflexes.âYou: âNobody noticed.âJinsik: âThe camera did.â
ááᢠHyunwoo
Hyunwoo stays calm throughout the interview, but while listening to you, his eyes keep lingering on you. When you speak, he tilts his head slightly, as if carefully analyzing everything you say.At one point, you almost trip over a microphone cable. Hyunwoo almost stands up instinctively but sits back down immediately.Even that split-second movement gets caught on camera.You:âItâs fine, Iâm okay.âBut Hyunwoo is still watching you.After the interview, he says briefly: âBe more careful.âThen adds: âFor me.âIt doesnât sound normal, because it feels too possessive.
ááᢠSeeun
Seeun is relaxed from the start, joking and easing the atmosphere. But while youâre speaking, he keeps making eye contact with you.When the host is asking someone else a question, you laugh slightly. Seeun laughs at the exact same time.The synchronization is noticeable.Even the host comments on your âchemistryâ but moves on.Seeun whispers to you: âDid they notice that?âYou:âI think so.âSeeun: âNice.âThen immediately:âNo, bad.â
ááᢠYujun
Yujun stays controlled throughout the interview, but gives very small reactions to what you say. At one point, he subtly turns his microphone slightly toward you.While the host asks another question, you accidentally bump the edge of your chair. Yujun reaches out instinctively but pulls his hand back before touching you.But those micro-movements are already caught on camera.You whisper: âDonât do thatâŚâYujun: âDo what?âYou: âYouâre making it too obvious without realizing it.âYujun pauses briefly:âSo are you.â
ááᢠHunter
Hunter is one of the most careful, but he keeps listening to you. Sometimes he looks at you instead of the host.At one point you fix your hair. Hunter lets out a small âhmâ like heâs about to finish your sentence.But he stops the moment he realizes it.Because that habit is too natural to explain outside a relationship.You notice too.Later, Hunter says: âWe shouldnât sit in the same chairs again.âYou: âWhy?âHunter: âBecause when we sit there, we forget.â
ááᢠJunghoon
Junghoon stays the quietest, but is the most observant. While you speak, he notices everything: your mic adjustments, your breathing, how you shift in your seatâŚAt one point, while you look at the host, Junghoon leans slightly toward youâvery subtly.At that exact moment, the camera catches both of you in the same frame.It looks completely natural.When you notice, you quickly lean away.Junghoon acts like nothing happened, but backstage he only says: âThe cameras are good at catching things.âYou:âWeâre bad at hiding it.âJunghoon: âNo.âA short pause.âWeâre just too used to each other.â
ááᢠYechan
Yechan is energetic from the start, joking and filling the atmosphere. But while you speak, he keeps looking at you and unconsciously matches your rhythm.At one point, when you laugh, he laughs tooâbut slightly delayed.The host notices.A comment like âyouâre very in syncâ comes up.Yechan immediately says: âWeâre always in sync!âBut his voice comes out too fast.You look at him.He looks back.And in that moment, both realize: it was too natural.After the interview, Yechan says:âWeâre just⌠in the same company.âYou:âNo one believed that.âYechan:âI didnât either.â
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â¨A little note from the author: â¨
the cameras were there⌠but they werenât the real problem. it was the habits.not the big moments, just the small onesâan instinctive glance, a reflexed touch, a sentence that almost finished itself.and the classic line: âweâre just in the same company.âspoiler: nobody believed it.(also english isnât my first language, so please be kind đŤś)
â§ Junghoon â§
Summary:What itâs like to have Junghoon as your boyfriend.Â
WC:501
Warning:none
He becomes your rock, helps keep you grounded. Even when life gets tough it stays easy with him.
âJunghoon Iâm tired.â You buried yourself in his chest. He wraps his arms securely around you. One hand comes up to cradle the back of your head, then strokes your hair.
âTake a rest then. I got you,â he whispered reassuringly and pressed a kiss to the top of your head.
Stay-in dates are his thing. Watching movies or binge watching a show. Ordering in food or attempting to cook your own. Trying out a new hobby. He loves anything that can be done inside the four walls of your home.Â
Your laughter radiated through the room as you stared at, well whatever creation it was sitting in front of you.
âI donât think this is right Junghoon.â You picked up the mangled, poorly stitched together stuffed animal from the kit you two were trying out.Â
âHe just has his own style,â Junghoon shrugged, but a smile graced his face seeing you so amused by, well whatever it was he created.
On the occasion that you two do go out and do something. He never fails to somehow make it feel like you two are the only ones in the world. Tuck into the corner seats of a cafe and everything else fades away. Going for a walk in the park and somehow it is only you two and the nature surrounding you.Â
Can be shy when it comes to showing affection or not at all and there is no in between.
Itâs the third time you felt Junghoonâs hand brush against yours. You came to visit him at the company while they were on break for lunch from rehearsing.Â
âYou can just hold it, you know.â You laced your hand with his as you leaned in to whisper to him. A blush bloomed across his face as he rested (hid) his face on your shoulder.
âYou came.â Junghoon practically crushes you in a hug when you show up at the end of one of their shoots.Â
âYou said it would be nice if I did.â You hugged him back.Â
âLast week you were too shy to hold her hand in front of us, but now youâre clinging to her,â Seeun chuckled.
âTold you heâs unpredictable,â Hunter said.
He can come off as nonchalant or go with the flow, but is actually planning your future together in his head. Heâs super attentive and loves learning new things about you; your thoughts, opinions, random lore.
âWouldnât it be nice to live in a house not too far away from the ocean?â he asked you. You didnât think too much about his question. Simply thinking that itâs something he randomly thought of.Â
âYeah it would be nice to be able to walk or take a short trip and see the ocean,â you say. Now Junghoon is thinking about houses that arenât too far away from the ocean that you two can live in together eventually.Â
Summary - You thought going on a morning run with Junghoon would help you get to know him a little more but all itâs doing is wearing you out and showing just how out of shape you are.Â
Genre - Fluff
Warnings - None.
Word Count - .8K
A/N - Iâve started morning runs and itâs torture. Wouldnât recommend it to my worst enemy lol lol lol. I just wanted to write a little something for Junghoonâs birthday đĽ°
When you signed up for a morning run with Junghoon you didnât realize it would be quite soâŚearly. Normal people donât get up this early. Normal people donât torture themselves this way. There is literally no one out on the street, not a single other person. And sure, this part of town is less busy during the day, but not even a car driving past on the way to work, or returning from a crazy night out? Â
If his slow blinking and drooping eyes are anything to go by he clearly hasnât been to bed yet. Heâs tired, and so are you after waking up at 3am to make yourself presentable enough to come out on this run. A run that was supposed to be a clever ruse to get to know Junghoon on a more intimate level has turned into a desperate attempt to look like youâre having fun. Every time he turns around you force a smile on your lips and gather all your energy reserves to pick up the pace. Just a little more, give it a little more.Â
Itâs been a while since your last run, let alone a run this early in the morning and youâre struggling to keep up. He may be tired but heâs still fast, disappearing around corners and down alleys and across the street and youâre worried that this time you may have lost him for good. Itâs those damn long legs of his! Plus the fact that he actually considers himself a runner â that may have something to do with it.Â
He reappears from behind a side street, clearing the little yellow house until heâs back into view. His eyes search for a moment before landing back on yours. Itâs quick but a smile passes across his face before he gives you a stern look and reminds you to call out if he gets too far ahead.Â
Itâs hard to talk, your throat is raw and you need all your energy just to heave up oxygen so you nod instead. Not for the first time this morning.Â
Heâs about to take off again and you groan inwardly but then he turns towards you and starts to jog in place. You take the opportunity to give up entirely on looking cool. You bend over, hands on your knees, to suck in air as if youâve been deprived of it your entire life. Pain sears deep within your ribcage as you gulp and wheeze. Itâs not an attractive look, you know, but thereâs no stopping it.
âMaybe we could,â he starts, taking a mid sentence breath, âI mean, we could have done something else?â
âHuh?â is all you get out.
He watches you for a moment before shaking his head. âItâs not. It's. Itâs nothing.â And he takes off again.Â
âWait.â Your voice is raspy as you follow the giant, still slightly hunched over. âAre you asking me out?â
He looks over his shoulder, his face unreadable, and you're in too much pain to stop yourself.Â
âBecause Iâll say yes.â The words grind against the back of your throat as you come to a stop. Thereâs a park right next to you, the plush green grass and golden leaves infusing you with a sense of calm confidence. âEspecially if it doesnât involve anymore running.âÂ
Thereâs a peculiar look on his face, his lips are pulled in slightly in this sort of reverse pout as he jogs in place. âWhy did you ask to go on a run if you donât like to run?â
You shrug, your hands back to your knees as you finally feel the first full breath soar through your body and expand your lungs. Itâs the first time you have been able to breathe this deeply since you started this whole thing. Heâs still jogging in place, his eyes on you. âI just thought it might be nice to hang out or whatever.âÂ
He smiles and points towards the playground. âYou want to hang?â Heâs already making his way to the monkey bars before you fully turn around. He grabs them but his feet still touch the ground. Heâs too tall for them so he tucks his legs back under and swings back and forth slightly. âWe can hang.âÂ
âWhy wouldââ You stop as his words register. You roll your eyes but the laugh is genuine. âVery funny.âÂ
He smiles and it's glorious. He has the kind of smile that canât just stop with him.Â
Clearing your head with a small shake you skip over to the swing set. Thereâs two of them dangling side by side. Sliding onto the nearest one you kick your legs back and forth until you find a rhythm, gliding back and forth, the wind lifting your spirits along with your hair.Â
Junghoon lets go of the bars and walks over. He sits down on the swing next to you and quickly falls into your rhythm. You both swing in silence, smiles on your lips as you stare at each other, pondering the possibilities of tomorrow.Â
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LISTEN junghoon said once if he sees someone he wants to be friends with, he tries his best to befriend them
imagine him having a crush on you but you'd never know since he's neutral (like w everyone else). so he'll picture your face on his mind and sigh deeply (in love), cursing himself for not being able to say what he feels.
hoonie in love must be the sweetest boy ever đđ
đ anon
Junghoon has a such a big crush on you, to the point where heâs almost infatuated with you. The more he spent time with you, the more he loved everything about you; your features, personality, and your unique habits. Even though he acts like he normally does, the people around him could tell that he acts differently with you, whether itâs making sure your safe, going out of his way to buy you snacks, and even willing to comfort you.
It will most likely be you to confess your feelings first. Even though you want to tell him your true feelings, canât tell he doing all the things heâs doing because he truly loves you or him being his blunt but friendly-self. When he hears you confess, heâll feel like heâs on top of the world, giving you the tightest hug youâll ever receive.
đđ junghoon and his oblivious crush who doesn't notice just how much he's head over heels for them, even though he's trying so hard to make it known. featuring: hyunwoo as his wingman(â Ëâ シâ _â シâ Ëâ )
word count: 5.1k
author's note: um yeah i disappeared for a month(â シâ oâ シâ ;â ) this fic is set throughout the course of your debut preparations as another group under KQ!
( likes and reblogs appreciated!⥠)
you were initially spooked when you entered KQ as an impressionable trainee, scouted for the next group the company is set to debut in a few months. you have to thank your seniors for the scare, receiving warnings about how you shouldnât have chosen KQ or even hearing literal horror ghost stories about how the building is apparently haunted.
theyâre all something to laugh off though, even if the company can get annoying sometimes, youâve found it the least bit tolerable with the friends youâve made, such as your own group members and also xikers members since the both of you were quite close in age. aside from that, they also do their part in guiding you and your fellow trainees with your future idol life.
youâre able to count with your fingers the number of months left until your group is about to debut, a bit busy with sessions around the company building day and night.
like⌠today in particular.
the door to the recording room creaks as you push it open, greeting your vocal teacher by the corner along with a few familiar KQ producers.
youâre actually surprised that one of your ateez seniors, hongjoong, is actually here. since theyâre often on some schedule, you didnât expect him to show up at all. as you enter the recording booth, you made it a point in your head to ask him later about how it feels like promoting overseas, as itâs one of your goals to travel the world as an idol as well.
a conversation ensues with everyone in the room as you get your headphones ready, standing before the microphone. it was a bit intimidating to see everyone so serious at the corner of your eye, but your vocal teacher giving you a thumbs up managed to calm your nerves a bit, with hongjoong flashing you a smile too.
recording your parts for the songs went by in a whir, honestly feeling like you kinda blacked out the whole time with so many eyes on you. canât say that youâre not nervous⌠but you were excited at the same time. as you left the recording booth, it felt like a huge weight on your shoulders lifted off, until it felt like something really rested on your shoulder.
you turned around and met a set of piercing eyes, but youâre startled state easily fizzled down when you realized it was just junghoon, and a smile tugging on the side of his lips.
âi watched you record your lines back there, i always knew you were great at singing right⌠but wow i never knew you were that good.â you were surprised to see half of the xikers members were actually around to witness you record your vocals for your debut song.
talk about embarrassing⌠like you wanna just dig a hole and hide there forever. especially when you remember that you messed up some parts when you were trying to warm up.
âstop it! i didnât know you guys were actually watching, then i shouldâve tried my hardest to keep my voice from cracking like earlierâŚâ
your trance was quickly interrupted when he started singing your lines jokingly, even trying to copy some of your mannerisms as you were in the recording booth a while ago.
you bantered with him, releasing a low huff as you threatened to hit his shoulder if he didnât stop the sing-song he was doing.
âspeaking as your senior, iâm telling you thatâs quite normal actually. so don't worry about it. really y/n, i mean it. now youâre probably gonna be off to dance practice after this one, so i got you this drink for later.â
âyou love calling yourself our company seniors when weâre not really that far in age!â you try to hit junghoon on the shoulder, missing when he swiftly dodges the light attack.
you playfully whine, and he only erupts into a little fit of a giggle. âthink i donât know you well enough that you always try to playfully hit me? youâre so predictable y/nâŚâ
junghoon doesnât receive a reply, but his eyes bore a deep gaze on your features. he almost fell into his habitual activity of admiring you during conversations, but he snaps out of it real quick when you snatch the bottle of a drink right out of his grip.
your attention flickers toward hyunwoo when he suddenly yells among the simultaneous chitchats happening within the recording room.
âalright everyone! i feel like iâm actually in a really good mood today. so if anyoneâs up for some fried chicken, itâs gonna be my treat. just head out with me,â and with that, everyoneâs in a shuffle to scurry out of the recording room, the abrupt shut of the door making you realize youâre left alone with junghoon.
âyouâre not in the mood for some fried chicken too? guess we might be meant to be huh.â you offer your hand in front of him, junghoon reciprocating to shake it in return. heâs honestly quite impressed with himself that he managed to keep composure this whole time, holding your hand in his while you tell him the both of you are meant to be?
of course, he knows it in him that you just mean it in a friendly type of way, but he canât handle the way his heart beats fast at your words. especially when heâs been pining over you ever since he met you, biting his tongue but failing to keep the smile creeping up on his lips. oh kim junghoon you are so down bad for this personâŚ
and since he's made it this far without slipping up on his little crush, he's sure he can contain yourself from blushing from a mere hand-holding (or hand-shaking) moment.
he only laughs it off as he lets your hand go, racking up his mind for any possible reply. really junghoon, a whole moment you had to take there from that simple interaction.
ânow where were we?â
from how busy and tired you were with trainee life, you canât even decipher anymore which day of the week is it. you just know that you have to be there on the dot for dance practice that stretches all throughout until the sun sets.
your legs were aching as you sat around in a circle with some of your fellow members along with seeun and hyunwoo.
your dance teacher had dismissed you a bit earlier today, but your group members decided to stay for a while to play the mafia game, and eventually settle in with a round of truth or dare. you honestly canât remember when exactly the two xikers members joined you all, but you didnât really mind as both of your groups were close already as time went by.
a bottle spins in the middle of the floorâthe empty bottle of the drink junghoon likes to give you all the time.
speaking of junghoon, where is he though⌠you thought he and hyunwoo were inseparable, guess not. you were used to getting almost daily drinks from him that you wouldnât feel a day would be complete if he didnât hand you one.
âearth to y/n?â seeun snaps his fingers right at you, and you laugh it off when you realize you were probably staring into nothingness.
the bottle points to you.
one of your group members was about to make you choose between truth or dare, not until seeun interrupts with his laugh echoing so loud within the dance practice room. âooooh⌠you were thinking of junghoon werenât you? you were staring so hard at the bottle.â
hyunwoo suddenly lands a slap on the back of seeunâs head, making him yelp. âi didnât know you were that smart to figure that out dude⌠this will probably be the last time iâm gonna be telling this to you but you were kinda a genius for realizing that.â
seeun only rolls his eyes, while hyunwoo scoots a little bit away from him, snickering. âwas that meant to be a compliment or an insult?â
hyunwoo just sticks his tongue out at seeun, turning his head back to you. âactually, junghoonâs supposed to come with me today but minjae asked him for help around the dorm or something.â
âi didnât even ask but okayâŚâ you deny, eyes flickering towards the wall instead because they were damn right you were thinking about junghoon. question is, isnât it completely normal to be thinking about him at that moment? that bottle really does remind him of you with how often he buys it for you. who are you defending yourself from anyway⌠not like you were gonna acknowledge seeunâs teasing from a while ago anymore.
âblah blah blah, enough of that nonsense now, youâre dragging the game out. so y/n⌠truth or dare?â you have to thank your member for bringing the mood back after those two were bugging you with their rascal-like attitudes.
âtruth.â
and suddenly your members were squealing into oblivion?! what happened to them being on your side⌠now youâre a bit nervous about what theyâre gonna ask you. at least thereâs no chance theyâre going to make you do some insane dare.
"we've been dying to ask you⌠is there something going on between you and junghoon?" your group members bring up, making you mentally face-palm yourself.
"not you guys too!"
you're crossing your arms in front of you, chewing the inside of your cheek to think of some excuse to not talk about this. but why do you not wanna talk about this anyway⌠you're just friends with him, right? and since you don't wanna be called a party pooper, you just answer them so they'll finally shut up about junghoon.
"well⌠we're just friends." it's kinda funny watching their shoulders heave down like a balloon getting deflated.
hyunwoo chimes in again, letting out some noise of a 'tsk.' before shaking his head.
"it just doesn't make sense to me why he's so different around you. the first time the other guys met him, they were all saying he was so intimidating and quiet to have around." seeun nods in agreement, listening.
"intimidating? if i'm gonna have to choose among the xikers members, he's probably the most approachable from all of you."
"junghoon and 'approachable' in a single sentence?! well, i'm quite close with him so i know he's not completely that scary but⌠it's the first time i'm hearing a first impression like that about him." hyunwoo leans back, seemingly starting to drown in deep thought just because he couldn't fathom this other personality of junghoon that he only chooses to show you.
"whatever. you're dragging the game out again with all your questions. here, i'll go spin the bottle to see who's next."
and as you swing the bottle in the middle of your huddled figures, you find yourself in a reverie of how junghoon actually treated you these past few months. the first time you stepped into the KQ building, you didn't know how you managed to get lost. thankful that you accidentally bumped into junghoon in one of the halls, and he offers to take you on a tour around just to show you the way.
from then on, you'd always come up to him whenever you had questions as a trainee, continuing to warm the friendship between you two. never once did he greet you with his supposed intimidating aura that everyone keeps talking about, though you do feel it a bit in his gaze sometimes. so you wonder if he's trying to seem like a welcoming senior to all of you newbies to the company, or if there's something more⌠just as everyone's trying to suggest.
whatever it is, it's bound to give you a headache on top of the trainee schedules you have to keep track of lately.
by the time you spent practicing the choreography for your debut song, you werenât sure if you were on the verge of getting sick of hearing it even before you got to debut. but you push those thoughts at the back of your head as you focus on trying to get this particular move right, except you appear to be strugglingâŚ
ây/n, donât you think we should take a little break before we practice this next part of the song? itâs almost lunch anyway.â one of your members collapses on the ground, sighing in exhaustion. you do give them a nod, but still not letting up and trying to rehearse the moves in front of the practice room mirror.
âthis is supposed to be my center part, iâm trying to perfect it today thoughâŚâ
your member only huffs another sigh before rolling over to face the other side of the room. by a minute you were already back in your element, dancing right from the start of your song until you get to your center part and messing it up once more, groaning in annoyance.
the practice room door creaks open along with hyunwooâs voice echoing that heâs apparently gonna treat everyone to some fried chicken again, earning the attention of your fellow group members as they soon rush out to get lunch.
but you really canât afford to waste time right now, after your dance teacher left you a reminder that he has to see you master your moves already by the time he gets back this afternoon.
and what do you know⌠youâre completely left alone with junghoon again.
âjunghoon! havenât seen you around recently⌠you donât wanna get chicken with the rest of the guys?â you turn to face him, shaking his head as he approaches you.
âalready ate lunch, and besides, i really wanna see how your debut preparations are going,â he utters, handing you another bottle that you immediately chugged down. you didnât realize you were that parched from practice.
âwell, thatâs good. iâm kinda missing you a bit lately.â
and as junghoon felt your hand brush over his as he gave you the drink, he finds himself in another epiphany at your words.
you? his crush⌠missing him?
as he starts to ponder deeper heâs almost convincing his thoughts that you mightâve been saying that because you miss receiving the drinks and not really spending time with him. but heâs so sure you said you missed him. itâs probably another one of the things you innocently mean, and just because of his little crush on you, heâs blowing things out of proportion. yeah⌠that seems to be the case.
âhey, junghoon, are you okay?â he blinks back into reality when he sees you waving a hand in front of his face. âyou sure you had lunch? you just spaced out a second ago. anyway, as i was saying, i think i need a little bit of your help for this one move iâm trying to execute.â
he wasnât able to reply when you lifted your phone screen up to him, showing him the part of the choreography you were practicing.
heâs praying thereâs not a hint of a blush spreading on his cheeks right now when you get closer.
âme? well⌠yeah i dance but iâm more of a vocalist orââ really junghoon⌠y/nâs asking you right now and you throw yourself under the bus by saying that. he mentally claps for himself, sarcastically.
âwhat? you know iâm starting to think you havenât eaten lunch yet with the way youâre acting right now. i know youâre a really great performer, iâve seen most of your fancams! donât lie to me,â you playfully jab him on his shoulder, youâre really gonna be the death of him if you keep up with your antics. at this point, heâs impressed he hasnât slipped up on how he feels for you yet.
but⌠did he hear you right again? âyou watch my fancams?!â
âwell yeah silly⌠i joke around with you a lot but iâm honestly speaking when i say youâre one of the people i look up to.â
oh y/n⌠you really have no idea how youâd possibly make him melt at your words. heâs too dazed to express a little gratitude at your compliment, so he steers the situation.
âhow about we start practicing that move together right now? gotta make it quick so you have some time to get lunch afterward you know.â and he watches you nod at him like a puppy, facing the mirror to get yourself ready. though youâre looking at his figure in the mirror so you can follow his moves, at least he could tolerate it since youâre not directly looking at him.... and possibly make him evaporate from the face of the earth with how his heart is beating fast from your gaze.
once he got over all of his internal fuss, your practice session was actually starting to go smoothly, your entire mood cheering up as you finally managed to get most of the moves right, thanks to junghoon. you donât notice yourself starting to steal glances from him every now and then, giggling a little bit more than usual when he makes jokes as he teaches you some parts of the choreography.
the atmosphere was light for the most part, even having forgotten how you were starting to crave lunch a while ago.
it was a medley of chuckles within the room, until you break the fit, breathing in relief and turning your head towards his direction.
âlast move i have to get perfect, itâs this spinning part of the choreography. iâm actually having a bit of trouble with this âcause itâs hard to keep balance.â
he watches you scratch your head before bringing your phone up to him again, dragging your finger to find the timestamp of that one move in the choreography video.
âi canât seem to find which part it is, but⌠iâll just show you. it kinda goes like this,â heâs already looking at you before you glance back at him one last time, staring at your figure to execute the spinning move of the choreography.
but you were caught off guard when you suddenly misstepped, your foot hitting the forgotten bottle on the floor and losing balance.
it went pitch black as you closed your eyes as a reflex, preparing yourself for the impact of the floor that never came. that was until you came to your senses, opening your eyes that were staring right at junghoonâs, and you were then reminded of why exactly people call him intimidating. but though his gaze had a fierce tinge to it, his brows were contorted into a look of worry for you. his arms were around you to catch your figure, hands secure right on your waist with a gentle hold. junghoon sharply inhales, and thankfully you broke away from his grasp, or else his heart wouldnât be able to handle the situation further.
you scoot away from him with a little bit of distance, not forgetting to mutter a low thank you before fanning your face and looking in the opposite direction. you almost wanna curse yourself with the way blood is starting to rush at your cheeks, trying to hide your flushed expression. itâs one thing to mess up in front of junghoon, but itâs another for him to⌠to catch you like that. and is it really that serious for your heart to be beating like crazy right now? you canât manage to keep it under control. thereâs no way youâre going to continue practice after what just happened.
junghoon broke the deafening silence, his voice still a gentle one. âdo you wanna go grab lunch now? maybe the hunger is making you a bit dizzy.â
âyeah⌠i think youâre right. iâll go head out first,â
it was a whir as junghoon watched you hurry out of the practice room, head hung low and still worried about the recent scenario. heâs starting to debate with himself on whether he should be following you out the door, but his legs were already giving him an answer as he struggles to budge from his position.
normally youâd be groaning and screaming through your pillow from how busy you were with debut preparations, but youâre thankful you werenât able to face junghoon because of your hectic schedule approaching your debut.
itâs been a week since the incident happened, and honestly, it felt like hell whenever you were left alone with your thoughts, so you drowned yourself with practice. it got to a point where your managerâs begging you to loosen up a little bit, so here you are at your dorms, huddled up within the sheets.
for starters⌠youâre absolutely sure junghoon isnât mad at you or anything. heâs very understanding with you and always teases that he knows all of your antics already, likewise as you know him very well⌠youâre very close with him right? as friends. but calling whatever is between you two as friendship hurls an inexplicable stomp on your chest that you hate.
and itâs gotten worse when you look back on your actions that one time. yeah he might not be mad at you but thereâs this certain thought that keeps provoking you. from the combination of the way you kinda stormed out that time and ignored him throughout the whole week, it might seem like you were mad at him. itâs not totally like you never see him anymore, you still sense his presence from your peripheral vision when you stumble upon him at the company. but you werenât making any moves to approach him at all.
âso did you finally realize you have a crush on him?â one of your members asks, earning your attention as you attempt to kick the mattress on the top bunk.
you thought that would be the last of it as you didnât respond at all, tired of hearing your members playfully complain about your behavior lately. some chatter about how all they were talking about was how you seem so out of it lately, always staring into oblivion.
theyâre not dumb⌠they know itâs probably because of junghoon because itâs weird that they never see the both of you together anymore. maybe itâs because youâre suffering from a severe case of being deprived of the drink junghoon always gives you that your group members almost attempted to buy you one, just so you'd cheer up.
âwhatever. iâll just wait this out until it all passes and i forget about it.â
âtrust me when i say thatâs the worst thing that could come out between two people pining for each other.â pining. was that really it? the spark of hope within you was starting to rekindle at the thought of junghoon possibly reciprocating your feelings. itâs just the uncertainty thatâs causing all this unnecessary dilemma.
âknow what? i think you watch too many movies that itâs rotten your brain and makes you say all that nonsense! and besides⌠shouldnât you be dozing off now? our debut showcase is literally tomorrow.â you reply back, switching your lamp off so the room is pitch black.
âblah blah you talk too much. just donât come running back to me when you guys finally confess to each other or something.â
your member was met with silence as youâd thrown the covers on yourself. thereâs no point engaging in this conversation leading to nowhere.
but it in fact does not pass and get forgotten like you intended it to.
from getting your makeup done, walking up to the stage and greeting the fans, your mind was torn in between focusing on your debut and the urge to clear out everything with junghoon once and for all. youâve had the past week to think about everything and all it has led to was that you have to communicate what you feel towards him. youâre not about to act like a child and wait for him to approach you instead. enough of that passive aggressiveness.
you snap out of it straight away when your debut song starts playing, finding your body moving along muscle memory. and for a while you let yourself get washed away by the feeling of finally making one of your dreams come through, a smile tugging on your lips as you hear the fans cheer as you perform. but everything else makes its way to trace back at him.
junghoonâitâs undeniable that he was a big part of your journey from the first step you took as a trainee until you found yourself doing what you love on stage.
from the blinding lights of the venue, you were able to catch a familiar glint of someoneâs eyes you were longing to meet lately. it was junghoon among the crowd, locking your gaze with him as he watched you near the end of your performance. your eyes flicker toward the banner heâs holding, decorated with your name, along with hyunwoo cheering beside him. despite the facemask he has on, you always knew it was him after all this time youâve spent studying his features when youâre together. trying to search for something more as you drown in his gaze.
as the camera points to your figure, you donât realize you're already smiling, holding up a pose to finish your ending fairy for the performance. it warmed your heart to see your fans appear for your debut, but it was so much more when the person you wanted to see the most showed up for support.
but as you returned backstage, it was inevitable for the air to turn a bit cold, just like how you left him hanging this past week. you knew that he deserved an apology.
heâs approaching you with a bouquet in hand, a card among the flowers which had âcongratulations on your debutâ written on it.
with how pretty the colors of the flowers were, it was how gloomy you started a conversation with him.
âjunghoon. um, about lately. i wanted⌠to talk to you about stuff.â you began, failing to meet his eyes.
he takes a step closer, hands in his pockets as he hides the way heâs fidgeting. âme too, y/n.â
âiâm sure youâre probably mad at me for ignoring you these past few days iâyou probably have a lot of things you wanna let out on me, so iâm saying that iâm ready to hear all of it. get mad at me, itâs alright. iâm probably not making any sense, am i?â itâs the second time youâve met his gaze in a while, staring back up at him with a slight frown.
junghoon doesnât like seeing that expression on you, flashing you a smile instead, his eyes softening as he pats your head.
âno, no⌠y/n iâm not mad at you at all. honestly, i think i should be the one apologizing for last time. i shouldnât have touched you like that so abruptlyââ
you interject, backing up with a step. âitâs not that, well⌠yeah it kind of is but, thatâs not the main point. letâs forget about whatever happened back there, i understand that i was about to fall over and you just caught me.â
he hums as a response, waiting for you to continue your string of words.
âi feel like i have to clear it out why iâve been avoiding you lately, and i just wanna get this off my chest already. but itâs... itâs a bit difficult to tell this to you in person.â
junghoonâs giving you that encouraging look, making you break eye contact and burying your gaze within the bouquet instead.
âiâve got something to tell you too, y/n. i do sense youâre a bit nervousâand thatâs completely alright. how about we say what we want to tell each other at the same time⌠does that ease your nerves a bit?â you're a bit comforted talking to junghoon the way you came to know him, letting your shoulders relax around his aura like he always does.
and you flash a small smile back, meeting his eyes. âyeah⌠yeah. iâd like that. i mean, you always know how to make me feel at ease anyway.â
and you await his count of three, staring down at your shoes before closing your eyes in anticipation.
3âŚ
2âŚ
1...
âi like you!â
and it hasnât taken you long before you realize that your chorus of voices meant that he reciprocates your words, feeling a buzz spread throughout your whole being as you check his expression for anything out of the ordinary.
but heâs just as shocked as you, holding each otherâs breath like a deer caught in the headlights. you canât help but feel your fingers fidget, alone somewhere backstage and only hearing the crumple of the bouquet wrapping and the shuffle of junghoonâs shoes.
âsince when?â you broke the silence, and he shuffled his bangs in an attempt to distract you from the blush rushing to his cheeks.
âever since i met you, y/n.â
you part your lips, surprised. âoh⌠iâm a bit embarrassed it took me so long to realize that i do have feelings for you too. junghoon, iâm⌠i really do like you and i wanted to spend more days with you in the futureâŚâ you struggle to find the words a bit, but junghoon nods as he patiently listens.
âyou have no idea how much it makes me happy hearing that from you. itâs probably a bit weird hearing this from me, but really⌠i mean it sincerely.â he feels like the heavy weight finally lifted off from his shoulders, expecting his confession to feel like a mess of emotions, but heâs surprisingly calm.
âno, no! not weird at all. iâm relieved the junghoon i knew is backâŚâ
âlet me show you how much i like you?â junghoon asks, your heart racing when he cups your cheek with his hand, the other taking the bouquet from you so he can inch closer to your finger. the both of you close your eyes, awaiting the moment youâve been yearning for forever, tilting your head a bit as he comes closer, almost pressing your lips against his not untilâ
âhey junghoon! so you were here all along huh, you suddenly ran off after the performance. i was gonna remind you that you owe me for all the fried chicken i had to buy lately! the price is no joke, i hope you know that and ohâoh. i think iâm interrupting somethingâŚâ
the both of you immediately pulled away from each other upon hearing hyunwooâs voice through the halls, earning him a fierce glare from junghoon. you huff in return⌠how dare hyunwoo interrupt your kiss?! really heâs gonna get it soon, narrowing your brows at him before he scurries at runs away as fast as he can.
âhyunwoo... when i catch you!â
author's note: the lag was insane when i pasted the whole fic into Tumblr...