#junewithhan

tickling han with my toes lol

yo current time check 3:55AM and i just got done washing up. so..... lots of things happened today!!!! ok y’all know that usually i’ll meet han every sat right? but this week was different cus he went to JB on sat so we ended up meeting on sunday instead. to be totally honest, at first i was really fucking salty about it. i mean like come on, i see you only once a week and sat is the best day to meet so that you can rest on sun? and ya i actually cried a little while talking on the phone with him about it. cus he mentioned it to me i think on wednesday night? the moment he told me that he alr had plans on sat i just immediately felt rly fucking shitty haha. but then i thought about it again and felt that he should just go ahead with his plans cus like he don’t rly have much close friends and this was an opportunity for him to get closer on a more personal level ah rather than just being colleagues at work, yknow? so ya, we met on sun. ok so sunday afternoon around 2+ i texted him to ask him what time we’re meeting and where and then he replied me saying that he’s gonna leave now and asked me to get ready and that he will reach i assumed, sg in like 15 mins since there wasn’t any jam. and i thought oh ok and took my own sweet time to get ready. like i really fucking took my own sweet time. i kept checking my phone to see if he replied me cus i asked him again where are we meeting. and even after 2 hours, there still wasn’t any replies at all. so ya ofc i felt like what the fuck?? it was 430 and nothing from him. i was getting anxious la ofc like oh maybe he reached home and then fell asleep or smth while resting cus i tried to call him but i couldn’t get thru at all like his phone was switched off. it was almost approaching 5pm when i felt like giving up alr. istg i almost fucking cried cus i felt like he didn’t cared enough to even update me about his whereabouts and shit. i was worried that maybe smth happened to him?? but yet i was mad at the fact that maybe he was having so much fun he forgot about the time. i was halfway through removing my makeup when he suddenly called and said that he was outside. and i was like outside?? where?? and then he said he was outside my house and i was like ok..... cus like i legit felt fucking malas alr want to go out. i had things i needed to get and “promises” he made with me the night before (he bought the sim card at msia to call me) felt like it was all just a hoax ah cus he missed me terribly while he was in jb. but bc i also missed him what so i siap again and went out of the house to meet him. i guess i took longer than expected cus he called me and asked if i’m going out anytime soon and i was like ya. so after awhile i went out of the house and then i was just in this stupid pissy mode ah. the heat, the fact that he didn’t bother to call and let me know where he was and shit just made me rly mad la. and then he kept apologizing and told me that he haven’t changed his sim card yet so that’s why he couldn’t contact me and stuff and i was like wtf why didn’t u change before u left?? and then he said that he couldn’t cus he didn’t have the pin thing (yeah iphones need this pin thing to poke through the hole to eject the sim card slot) so ya. and then stupid me hurt his feelings cus i said him can you not??? when he touched my hand while apologizing in the lift. i could see the hurt in his eyes and tbh ah i had this whole scene played out in my head you know. like the moment i meet him right, i was gonna ask him “eh u fasting not?” and if he says no, i was gonna run up to him and give him a long tight hug cus i rly fucking missed him. like y’all dunno how much i longed to see him. this whole week has just been rather shitty for me and he was the only person i was fucking looking forward to seeing all week. but that scene didn’t happened. and i didn’t tell him i had that whole intention in mind either. i was just still too mad. but after awhile, on the bus the feeling of anger just dissipated. i mean like ya i can’t stay mad at him for too long also. besides he was holding my hand so tight and stroking them gently i just..... can’t stay mad alr la wtf. and then he mentioned couple lab and going to bugis and all cus they have an outlet there. so we decided to head there after tampines. oh ya, did i mention the bus we took were heading to tampines? cus i wanted to go to hnm to find a skirt for raya. can i just say???? it feels so good to hold his hand, and hug and rub his arm. i rly missed it..... haha ok so upon reaching tampines we went to century square cus they recently opened!!! and the mall was so damn crowded wtf but tbh there wasn’t anything much there. we didn’t rly see much shopping places, most of them are furniture shops and food. so after exploring century square a little, we walked towards tampines mall where hnm is located at. i didn’t have any specific design in mind and just wanted a skirt that is suitable for the occasion. after much browsing and trying in the fitting room, i finally settled for 2 skirts!!! i was torn between the black one and the gold one (not in picture) and was trying to decide out of the 2. ofc the best option is the black one cus that was more suitable with the top that i’m gonna wear. and then han said “just get both la don’t need to think so much” and i was like huh both is alr $70!!! that’s a lot of money. and he was like “nvm i pay” and i was like........ still thinking whether i should get or not. and then he said again “just get both since you like both” so yes i ended up purchasing both courtesy of han. then i went to the toilet and changed into the gold on cus initially i was wearing this skort but it felt rly uncomfortable and we had other places to go so i felt like changing into the skirt was a good idea, which it rly was!!! it’s rly v pretty. if i can get a picture someday i’ll post it :) ok and then since we haven’t eaten anything han suggested eating at the new shop that is located near the escalator of the mall. i went along with the idea and we took a look at the place. it was relatively small but still spacious ah. i wasn’t really feeling the menu tbh haha and han knew cus he saw the look on my face lololol he rly knows me so well??? hahaha but i settled for mala chicken rice since it was almost 8pm and we had other places to go. i didn’t take a photo lol i totally didn’t think about it but the food was ok! generous portion of chicken and han said the uncle gave us free eggs!!!! i actually inhaled all my food lmao and finished earlier than han. so i did some researching to find the nearest couple lab again ah like i was hoping they have an outlet that’s nearer to where we are so we didn’t have to travel so far out. and LOOOLL lucky i checked cus apparently t1 has an outlet and it’s the mall right beside tampines mrt. i told han and we decided to head there! it was situated at level 2 and really just right beside the escalator. at first i was a bit hesitant to go and see cus LOL I WAS SO SHY HAHAHAAHHAHA bodo sia i also dunno why. i think partly cus i’ve never had couple rings made before - think i mentioned this in the prev post also. and like having couple rings is rly a huge step, at least for me la cus to me it’s rly a promise of commitment to the person you’re with. it’s smth sacred, not like some play play thing make for fun ya know. butttttt ya ahahahahah we ended up making it!!!! apparently i’m a ring size 15??? and han also has the same ring size sia lmao my fingers r so manly i think hahahahaha. oh then han was like why did u make a scene there just now ahhhh lmao cus i was like “nooOo the thick band is for guys!!!!!” but actually it depends on ur preference hahahahaha we both got the plain thin bands. it’s cuter!!! there was this plain band with a hollow heart shaped engraved for the design but it was matte and i didn’t rly like the look so we got plain silver shiny bands instead with our names and date engraved on the insides. i hope it looks pretty when it’s ready to be collected!! oh and han mentioned that this and the skirts are my bday gifts so i didn’t have to pay him back for the skirts i got but i was like........ okok to be very honest here, i felt a bit upset ah. and no i’m not upset cus of the gifts. i love them to bits and i love the idea and the couple ring representing our commitment for each other i rly fucking love them but i just wasn’t really expecting this was how my bday day was supposed to be, you get what i’m saying? as in, it didn’t feel like a celebration for my bday at all. it felt like a normal day out except there were gifts involved and i just..... felt really sad at that point of time but i didn’t say anything cus i didn’t want han to think that i don’t appreciate his efforts. i really really do appreciate everything he has done for me today but it just wasn’t what i was expecting. maybe i had hoped a little too much cus on his bday he said smth like “just wait and see i’m gonna surprise you for your bday” but.... there wasn’t any element of surprise and i didn’t even know that he intended to spend today as a bday celebration for me. if i had known, i would have picked out a better choice of outfit for myself, i would have want to wear matching outfits with him, i would have taken pics of us tgt throughout the day like what we did for my bday last year. today just felt really..... sad. and i guess he did noticed it cus he asked me why my muka so masam je. da belikan benda semua tapi langsung muka tk nampak happy pon. which is not true la i was happy. i really really was but i guess the thought of my bday being special going down the drain showed on my face. and prolly the fact that my actual bday falls on wed which is on a weekday is also what made me feel like shit cus i know he can’t take any offs or leaves and he has work and tbh, i much prefer belated bday celebrations than advanced bday celebrations but part of me still wishes that my bday will be celebrated on the actual day itself cus bdays only comes once a year and you’re supposed to feel special on that very day. but this year is gonna be one lonely bday for me and it sucks cus my family don’t celebrate bdays either. ah ok enough rambling..... continue on with the day. so after that we walked back to tampines mall and then we went to singtel cus han wanted to sign up for a line plan for his mobile number. apparently there’s smth called simplan? i didn’t know about it until today also but it’s rly quite cool cus u get so much data for less than $40 but with caller ID, you’re basically paying about $40+ every month. which is really worth it since you get 10gb of data and it’s a yearly contract unlike mine, i’m on combo 3 plan and it’s a 2 year contract. and my mom is paying almost $70-80 per month under the corporate scheme. so after some personal details and processing, han signed the contract and is now a line user which means he now has to shoulder the burden of paying monthly phone bills. i just hope he doesn’t go overboard and burn all his mobile data in less than a month. i mean 10gb if that doesn’t fucking last u for a month then u rly got problem sia haha no offense. and then we bought liho and then decided to head back since the mall were alr closing anyway and there wasn’t anywhere else to go. so when we reached my place, we went to our usual hangout spot and was watching our own shows on netflix and then ya we kissed a bit and then ok this is where shit happened and bc i’m so easily overwhelmed by all the little shits i felt like breaking down. so yes i instantly just broke down into tears. all the shitty feelings for the past week just crumbled into that moment. all the thoughts about my bday, how much i missed him, everything i felt was in that stupid crying moment. ofc han was shocked. he didn’t know what happened or why i was crying cus it was so sudden. i was happy one moment and next thing you know i was bawling my eyes out. i just.... i guess i couldn’t handle it anymore and somehow the waterworks just began. perhaps i’m nearing my period too maybe that’s why i’m feeling so much. and then he hugged me and kissed me and wiped my tears and then hugged me again. the more he hugged the more i cried it was crazy. but after awhile i was ok. things became normal again but i dunno why the waterworks started again while typing everything that happened today. this week has just been a whole rollercoaster ride of emotions. ps: i love you. i love you with all my heart and there’s no one else in this world i would want to spend the rest of my life with other than you. you make me the happiest and i am grateful and thankful for everything you’ve done for me and given me. as cringeworthy as this sounds, i never thought i’ll actually find love like this but i guess fate works in mysterious ways. thank you for loving me continuously despite all my flaws and shortcomings. sure, we may have our ups and downs but you’re the best i could ever have and i would rather go through every ups and downs with you than anyone else (ꈍᴗꈍ)ε｀*)♥ goodnight~ oh and thank you again for the gifts!!! (´ε｀ )♡

no pictures of my bb today!!! :( but it was a happy day!! :D han came all the way to my place to fetch me before going to tamp together. do u know how excited i was!!!!! lmao i was rly excited bc han fetching me was sorta rare and to see him the moment i step out of the lift gives me such an euphoric feeling hehe (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵) between buses and trains, taking the bus is one of my fav things to do with han. like i know it doesn't rly qualify as an activity couples do but i luv it!!! bc we get to sit beside each other and i get the opportunity to just snuggle and rest my head on his shoulder while grabbing his arm with both hands like it's a bolster LOL!!!! also it feels like we're in our own little bubble without the constant staring from people as oppose to being on the train. besides, chances of getting seats on the train is almost zero to none and even more so during peak hours so that's a no-no. anyhoooooo we arrived and before we met han suggested eating at mr president or pho, he decided to go for the first choice but unfortunately there was quite a crowd (probably cus it's during dinner) so we settled for nasi padang which was also situated at b1 of century sq. then after having our early dinner, we went to numerous stores to find gatsby box dyes bc i have to tone down my current hair color + it was super patchy cus the previous bleach (i only bought 1 box fml) wasn't enough to lighten everything (i forgot that even though i have rather fine and thin hair, it's kinda long so i need about 2 or more boxes sigh). i was specifically looking for 'ash fade' cus after googling for reviews online it felt like it's a suitable color for both my skintone and the rules of uq since it has ashy tones in it!!!!! actually i was thinking of buying their aqua silver dye but i was afraid that it may come out looking VERY SILVER instead of dark grey almost black (which is the color i m going for tbh) we literally searched the whole mall to find that one color and finally found ONE box at tm's ntuc which ofc is definitely not gonna be enough (also bc gatsby is cater to men so the dye confirm not enough lor one box). han suggest hiding the box first bc i told him that we haven't went to venus beauty to see and so we hid the box and walked all the way to venus beauty in search of fade ash but THEY DONT HAVE IT HAISSSSS. so i told han that i'll just mix up two diff box colors and hopefully it'll turn out ok. i ended up getting fade ash and mocha latte (i think?? or is it classic mocha idk but it's mocha something). then we went to miniso and i got some cotton pads bc i rly needed it and a small travel size perfume!!! it seriously smells so good. i actually smelled it before and immediately fell in love w it when i went to miniso with my bro the other time but i didn't buy it bc i felt like i didn't need it and didn't want to waste $$ on something redundant but then i realised that my own travel size perfume (this rly small glass bottle i always carry in my bag) is running out so i decided ah why the heck not and paid for it along with the cotton pads ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ and then han sent me home!!!! yay!!! we took the bus back and played a rather long round of ml before booking a grab to send him home. it was his first (i think) time taking grabhitch and i haven't asked him how's his experience but if i rmbr i'll ask him later when he's awake haahah cus he ko the moment he told me that he's alr home and was charging his phone. it's also time that i get some sleep hehe it's nearly 5am and the alarm clock in my mom's room is ringing like crazy?? at 5am wth idk why she set it at 5 when we don't have to wake up for sahur anymore but ok goodnight!!!!

hi!!! hehe i didn't know han still reads the blog and waits for me to update/post something until he asked me about it today 😂 sadly i didn't managed to snap any pics of him today but we had a good time!!!!! we caught despicable me 3 bc i rly wanted to see the squishy minions and honestly even though i felt like the trailer of the movie kinda showed about 60% of the whole plot i still enjoyed it v much!! the whole flow was rly good and it made me giggle quite a bit (〃＾▽＾〃) my fav parts are probably the one where the minions accidentally took part in a singing audition and when they argued with gru bc he's not a villain anymore. after the movie ended, we went to bk for takeout (cus my dad wanted a whopper) and i got spicy nuggets from maccas!!! i was contemplating between spicy nuggets and mcwings but i decided to go for nuggets instead since its not on the permanent menu. and then han sent me home and we sat down at the void deck to eat together!! also surprisingly han perspired a lot today which tbh is so unlike him ahahahah the one who usually perspire like crazy is me :') but i did perspire quite a fair bit when we decide to sorta play a game of tag and then we played a round of ml ranked game and won, adding another star to our current rank!!!!!! OH AND GUESS WHAT today i found out that han is so frickin strong (O_O) i honestly didn't expect such strength to come out from an average build but i guess all those training in scdf paid off!!!! cus he literally scooped me up like it was nothing and i didn't even have time to react bc i was so stunned LOL and then he piggybacked me and heaved me up???? and even walked around wtf i was so in awe like wow daebak he could pin me down and i wouldn't even be able to move AHAHAHHAHAHAH OK STAHP LOL SORRY oh and i perspired so badly afterwards so i was dabbing my perspiration with a piece of tissue and then he just came over to me and continued wiping my perspiration away while blowing air to keep me cool sigh he is so sweet!!!! and he looks ridiculously good today i just want to stare at him all day and stroke his handsome chiseled face and kissing his soft lips from time to time AHAHAH fk i just sound like a creep but goddammit h2g i can't believe i'm w someone who is so beautiful when i myself look like a kentang Σ(-᷅_-᷄๑) also he got shy and blushed and i find that so stinkin cute it makes me want to squish him ahhhhhh~~~~~~;;;;; sigh i love him so so much

/// some points i rmbr • twice we were stopped by someone promoting wedding services – the 1st at dhoby and he spoke to us in chinese LOL, 2nd was when we were walking towards the bus stop after our dinner at 4fingers. • actually any day with han is a good day even if we have an argument i would still think that it’s a good day as long as i get to spend time w him. • i’m too frikin deep already i don’t even want to get out ㅋㅋㅋ • we walked back and forth A LOT • han wanted to eat at the korean shop but it was too crowded and by the time we walked back to see if there’s any space, they were alr closed for the day hahahah!! • i think we met my buyer today again to pass her the earpiece i missed out • he accompanied me to h&m and i got two items!!! one of which is for hari raya and the other was this rly cute cropped hoodie with bell sleeves (this has become my ultimate fav btw)

ahhhhhh my shimjang~~~~~ (*♡∀♡) the cutest!!! istg he looks damn good in dark colored clothing (aka black LOL) and he looks damn boyfriend with the hoodie on though i don't think i've ever seen him in a navy blue tee before. it was my birthday and i have never been more than happy to be celebrating it with the loml!!! honestly this year was probably the best one in a really long time cus i've got more than i deserved. the bestest mom and aunt, han and my friends. i haven't met my circle of friends in a really long time though cus they're all busy with their own lives at the moment but still, i appreciate each and everyone's wishes including the ones from my cousins!! my initial plan was to meet at dhoby cus i wanted to gift myself a pair of earring that i've been having my eyes on for quite some time but didn't bought it for obvious reasons (aka save $ cus i felt like 15-18 bux for a pair of earrings is honestly a tad overpriced esp more so since it's just a pair of basic small hoop earrings). i thought maybe there's gonna be a sale so i decided to take a look at the store. upon arriving, han practically dragged me into the store and then i looked at the price but lmao it wasn't on sale so i was already leaving and he ended up telling me that he wants to get it for me as a gift but i was like???? nooOooOo i can get it myself bc i've already planned to get it as a gift for me. but he was all like nahhHhhHh idc and he kept pulling me to go pick the pair i wanted bc he's gonna pay for it but ugHhh i just felt like 15 bux is just not worth it for smth so minute omg likeeeeeee that's expensive as heckle so i pulled him out n i was like noOoo if i get it online it'll be much cheaper i can even get like idk 3 pairs or smth then he finally relented n told me ok u know what u MUST get it online then i will give you my card details n then u purchase it online u can get however much u want and i was just????? bb pls (๑•ૅㅁ•๑) we were about to walk out of dhoby to walk over to somerset when i saw that body shop was having a sale so i stopped to take a look at their products for awhile han was just like "DO U WANT THAT I CAN GET IT" and i was like what no i'm just looking at it first LOL but other than the ones that were on displayed outside most of their products were still priced the same (aka expensive) so i told him nah there's nothing i want here let's go. PAUSE DID I TELL U HOW THE AMOUNT OF SKINSHIP N HOW TOUCHY HAN WAS THAT DAY!!!! damn he made me feel all hot i could have just pounce on him if we weren't in public LMAO JK BUT SRSLY THO phew plus looking like a stud in his hoodie w that boyfriend look IS NOT HELPING BC I CANT BREATHE WTF if i die pls blame him for looking like a million bucks. then we decided to catch a movie at lido and me being this "fantastic" multitasker thought that i can maybe meet a buyer before we go for the movie so in a sense i can kill two birds with one stone (meet, get cash and having that extra cash to reward self since it's my birthday). but we ended up not being able to catch the movie cus our food got prepared late due to a careless mistake by the person serving us and also bc the buyer only arrived right at the same time as when the movie starts. so i suggested to han that maybe we can catch the movie on the next day instead since that's his official full off day. he looked a little unhappy so i asked why. he said he would have preferred if we could have done everything we planned to do on my birthday itself but since it has already come to this then it's okay. i felt sorry but at the same time really touched bc it just shows how much i actually mean to him for him to actually want me to have the perfect birthday celebration as planned :') and then we decided to walk around and went towards ion and stumbled another body shop outlet but this time han said he rly wanted to get me smth so i decided ok why not since i'm running outta cleanser soon anyway so he got me a bottle of cleanser and body soap!!! the strawberry one smells damn good i asked him to take one!! walking further down we also stumbled upon the SAME accessories outlet and apparently they had like a sale that if u get 2 pairs it's 20 bux???? but i was kinda like nahhhh u alr got me stuff from body shop n u paid for dinner i m more than happy it is enough save ur money!! but he's like NOOO i alr set aside money that i want to spend on u to pamper u with ok it's not everyday that i get to do this so pls let me do it on this special occasion and i was just going all awww n melting on the insides bc han is the cutest n sweetest human bean :') but i honestly felt bad cus we spent A LOT like idk how much in total but it was definitely a lot. he ended up getting me two pairs of the earrings in different sizes n i'm actually wearing a pair of them now!!! i don't think it suits my face but it's still the cutest pair of hoops n it's a gift i can actually wear for han hehe. HE EVEN SENT ME HOME n stayed till a little after midnight till the end of my bday :') actually he has been sending me home a lot lately like even before my bday whenever we went out he sent me home n it makes me so so so happy bc i like going on long bus rides w him n just hugging his arm n laying on his shoulder it just feels so good!!! ahhh i love han so much u have no idea how much he means to me ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡