Being extremely hyperfixated on enstars and having no one to talk to about it that shares at least 50% of my enthusiasm is suffocating. I definitely had fixations that lasted long but I honestly can't remember when or if ever I have been this intensely hyperfixated on a single thing for this long. It's been 4 months now? And it's not getting any less extreme I'm starting to feel exhausted. Thinking about enstars especially knights makes me feel like I'm going to explode. Even when I'm not playing enstars on one of my 5 freaking accounts I scroll through fan content or research stuff and just generally think about enstars. I have three txt files regarding enstars, tons of stuff saved I'd like to delve into more later and I went out of my way to rename every in game screenshot of the story on my phone so every file name includes the name of story it came from (I'm still not sure what's the right way to go about this because I numbered them in order of which one I took first but what do I do when I reread stuff and save more lines that came between the ones I saved previously, renaming them every time so it fits in game order sounds tiresome but won't I get eventually confused about the order of events in those stories????) uhhhhhhh and even though I read and think in detail about every little thing concerning anything I get even vaguely interested in there's so many things that I don't notice while others don't. How do people notice small details in mvs like characters being out of sync, I could watch something 1000 times and I still wouldn't notice those unless someone pointed it out. Ughh izumakoleo has destroyed my life. I think at this point I'm more excited about Leo interacting with Makoto than anyone else. Leo around Makoto, the way Leo acts towards Makoto is so important to me I can't explain it
I want to add here all of these character relationship things but there's a lot, I just really enjoy analyzing them.
I love charts and graphs any form of visual representation for any structure. I'm really tempted to make a one big document with pictures to keep track of all the random enstars thoughts I have. I should also add other media to my list of every enstars story in release order since I only included in game main story, events and scouts. Enstars has officially ruined me. I wish I could organize the enstars folder on my phone better but I can't make folders inside folders at least not from the gallery app but I doubt there are any other options. I hate how all over the place it is because I went back to events I read before deciding to document it for myself more properly especially when I'm going through it outside of the gallery app.
