#journaldump

Seasonal depression but it’s every season

Went to the gaining weight restaurant and found myself on the menu

I think the only reason i havent died yet is because both god and the devil dont want me

Sometimes I feel invisible and this blog is so I can scream into the void with no repercussions 🤗

I have all these memories of who i was but i dont know when i dont know when i remembered that i loved this song idk whoi was but i remember feeling it when i first heard it idk who iw as then i know who i am now and that i used to be that that perosn that version of my myself and i thought i would change when i grew up but im still me

Maybe ill actually want to look bakc on my life and be nostalgic if i dont spend my life wraped up on someone and i could look back and be happy of things that I did for me and not what i was for other poeple

I wonder if i'll always be wanting to go back to how it was waiting to go back to "normal" but i know that wont ever happen

i feel like its a huge win like what are the chances that in this fucked up rock that the rain isnt super loud like i feel like it should be louder because ther are somany and they are all falling