#journal ep

i always said i'd never take it back well i take that back in retrospect i have no respect for any feelings felt on nights dark black

if i'm not included in a package then i stay on the shelf clearance, marked down, dusted offf still i'll never sell

a sign hangs above the door it reads "welcome home" sounds coming from the other side screams, moans

could you at least have tried to hide at all proud and shameless surely blameless i should've dressed for the daggers cause they were my kiss goodbye so i'll trace scars to remember you i guess what doesn't kill us, right?

gotta gotta gotta get it together giving pep talks to the rearview mirror taking inventory of every strength and every failure of character

on the ropes and looking beat cruel gardener planted this seed preach that book baby i can believe it's me

just like i remember it sensual and horrible i guess i'll just wait until you're done we're adults after all

could you at least have tried to hide at all proud and shameless surely blameless i should've dressed for the daggers cause they were my kiss goodbye so i'll trace scars to remember you i guess what doesn't kill us, right?

i mean fuck all i really wanted was something real with anyone left undone by someone else trust me i can do it myself

i've never felt this way about anyone except every time that i did it's nothing personal, i love you, but one size would fit i noticed you stopped smiling recently no matter what the pictures where i'm absent say but this too will pass, like lies to a grave

but in case that flag wasn't red enough when you walk into the room, all the voices hush you were likely the last thing that they discussed and i'm sure the things they said would make a killer blush

and given a reason i might be convinced to tell the truth about what exactly we meant 1 i was lonely 2 the burden of expectation 3 are you even listening