#journal bits

What did I do to make you want to do this to me? Did I do something so bad that I deserve this? Please tell me...I just want it to end....

Whether I go to ‘heaven’ or ‘hell’, it should not concern in my human nature, since I would become something inhuman anyway. {Through dying, our spirit leaves our mortal body?}I wouldn’t know the alien experience until I become it, and who could say that my humanity will remain with me without doubt?

Please stop acting impulsively/immediately upon your snap judgements.

If formal & official writing is organized like a sandwich, then my writing is salad.

Would becoming ‘nothing’ be considered an ascension or a decline?

Is the absence of a property not a property in itself?

[Things that I cannot describe with blocks and walls of text]