#jossien

Sperzieboon & basilicum

I can actually not give a flying fuck about people who put me down, people who lower my self esteem, people who hurt me and make me cry. Fuck them I really do not need anybody but my family although I choose to have friends that I trust and don't involve me in unnecessary drama. Unlike some I chose not to hang out with anymore because of that very same thing, drama, especially when they are older then me and should be acting more mature and wise. I would love to be popular and have many friends but... No actually never mind that I am happy with my life and the friends I do have because even though I can only count my true friends on one hand they are the best people I have ever met and I hope I never lose any one of them because each of them has helped me through parts of my life that I might not have made it out alive threw. Plus I really don't know how they can fucking handle me sometimes I am a bitch, I'm jealous of everyone and everything, sometimes I cry for the smallest things in the world, and sometimes for nothing at all. I have three best friends in this world that have stood up for me when people talked shit, hugged me(or pet my head...) when all I wanted to do was cry, and let me vent to them about everything that has happened even though sometimes they cant even understand me because I am crying so hard. They have never judged me never ignored me when I was going through my toughest year, the last year I cut which was my sophomore year and four years before that. Some of my friends where scared of my and knew but chose to ignore the scars but not Chelsea everytime she saw me with new scabs she hit... slapped me on the wrists I would get so pissed but she cared she just wanted me to stop... Jossie my ride and die she ended it, helped me stop find a new outlet or just talk to her when I felt like I wanted to cut again, and I did. And it worked!..... Maximiliano my broseph I owe him so much he and my other two girls are the only people in the world that I know have stood up for me when some fucking gignger called me a bitch, or some chick thought she could fuck with me on facebook and expect for him and Chelsea to just sit back and watch:) If he was I girl I seriously know he would hit a bitch for me if I asked him to! And I love him for that, actually I know all three of them would if I asked em too! Well maybe not Chelsea she most likely wouldn't. But Max and Jossie would really fuck shit up! Anyways I am so glad I'm not some popular bitch with a shit load of friends who dont give a shit about her but instead I have three true friends that until now I havent noticed have always been on MY side no matter what.... thank you guys and idk how you deal with me!