Too emotional...
I’m learning so much about myself while I’m writing these blogs. I write better when I have music on that makes me think of the past, I write better in a robe, and I should lock the door when I write so I’m not interrupted, to name a few. But the one thing I’ve learned about when I write that I don’t like about myself is that I get too caught up, and too emotional when I write. I get so carried away sometimes, it really felt like I couldn’t stop typing. Even when my kids were calling me, I couldn’t look away from the monitor. It was like my heart was pounding, like I was running after something, and I wasn’t satisfied, I wanted to run harder til I couldn’t run anymore… It felt great but I also felt bad for my kids because I got angry at them for calling my name for dumb things. Well, dumb to me. As a parent I don’t have the luxury of living for me, my life is theirs now even when I’m doing it for them and I have no right to disregard their feelings… Hopefully now that I realize how I am, my bad attitude won’t rear its ugly head again, I hope…
