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I read the anon thing and have been watching you for sometimes. I see how you talk to me. You know how I felt. The way you said 'my ex' to him and it's like— I hate that word. I'm someone to you! Why do you have to talk to someone about us? And the way you were with him is so different with the way you were with me. I guess I was just your start up toy huh. Like you don't even know much about me. Did you regret of being with me? I'm sorry I can't be there and made you miserable. You don't even care about me you know. I think you already show him to your family and you never showed me. I'm like, you are embarassed of me. Again, you don't even cared about me. You don't talk to me much, waiting for me too. Haven't play with me, or care about what happened to me and I even felt I wanna cry when I read that anon post. When I asked about the guy, you were different. You sound different. You look different. You didn't look like so when you were with me. What ever happens if I am really gone from your life? Would you care about me? Would you ask around to find me? Because the way I see it, no. I send you asks, and you don't. You don't even come to my box. I loved you. Now you are just hurting me. Sometimes if I'm on, if you are on too, I wanna ignore from you and you, you don't even know I'm there. Like what is me to you? You were saying I'm important. No I'm nothing! I'm just like a trash. Thanks for wasting your time on me because you just use me. You don't know how I felt. And you'll never understand.