#joltext

people on this site often talk about how “once you’re in a fandom, you’re in that fandom for the rest of your life,” but something that i feel like doesn’t get brought up nearly as much is its negative counterpart: when a fandom you used to be in gets permanently, irreversibly tainted and you have to try to reconcile the complex feelings of having this thing you used to love and all the positive feelings and memories you used to have while having the bitterness and betrayal and whatever other negative feelings you have toward that thing (and potentially its creator(s) depending on what tainted it) now

got bitten by a wereyoutuber and now i have lycansubscribethropy :/

sometimes i want to return to my primal state and by that i mean i want to lie on my belly on the pavement and inch along like a worm. this would be horribly uncomfortable and i think not physically possible for me to do but to some level of my brain it just feels right