#jokuarts

⚠️ HUGE TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️

You will see how Joku tries to take advantage of a vulnerable teen to pursue a romantic relationship with them.

But before that, you need some context.

In one of the previous exposé posts I showed some screenshots of a discord server where there were minors and Joku sent NSFW commands towards them and was pissed that they didn't flirt back with her. This is the testimony of one of those minors.

This server was for Undertale fans, it was an ONLY MINORS server. Joku's excuse in January/February to the accusations was that she always roleplayed in places where everyone was an adult, "unless they lied about their ages". So that was a straight up lie.

Now onto the screenshots.

Sorry I had to use Google lens to get it out ASAP when I did. Just in case something is messy, I'll clarify:

Koa's staff interviewed this victim, asking about the server and their relationship with Joku (now tries to go by Sammy online and by Valentino at Spanish conventions).

They explained there weren't many security measures to ensure everyone was a minor, but Joku was let in because they admired her. Even so, she said she was in her 20s when in reality, she was 30.

They also say how Joku caused issues for everyone, but she wasn't kicked since she disappeared from time to time. She wanted to be made admin, but no one trusted her to be one. She would complain about the server to the victim, saying only they understand her.

Victim confirms that everyone was around 14-15 on the server.

Here we just got confirmation that she was 30 when the events happened (2023, January).

We can also see how she infantilizes herself while blaming others for doing so, and also says she "can't help it", her favorite excuse.

These will be triggering, be careful.

So for those who couldn't read or have any issues with the text:

The victim said they broke up with their partner, to which Joku replies with "you need someone more mature".

The victim looks sad, and Joku decides to tell them that she wants to suggest something, but that something "is not legal".

Then the victim says to not do it, because they don't wanna be a bother to Joku, to which she replies that she doesn't want any issues either because what if the parents of the kid read it? But "reassured" them again, saying if she gets caught she can say the victim is 18.

Then finished off saying she is poly romantic.

I think the situation here is crystal clear and Joku KNOWS it is wrong. She KNOWS they're a minor and even mentions the victims parents.

If you think this is awful, just know she was already in a relationship and no, her irl partner didn't know they were "poly".

I have not much to share because things are complicated in my personal life, however, I will share a personal conflict regarding this whole exposé.

I don't know if I'm doing well by sharing all of this.

The organization we contacted to inform us of what this person has done (sorry, I don't like repeating her name too much, it's tiring) has assured us. They're there to give legal advice, and they never told me that what I did was wrong. In fact, they said her actions were worrying and helped me make an official report and offered help to the victims.

I'm not good with reading in between lines, but I think that means I did the right thing, right?

Most people that reached out have been supportive, they even confirm they had bad or even awful experiences with this individual. Not just once, but multiple times.

However, I am a self doubter. And the way I handled this situation at the very beginning was a fuckin mess. I received many critiques -and just to be clear, they were valid and came from a place of care for the victims- and I have been in a pity party mode, blaming myself for making others doubt victims. This context is needed, because it will bite me in the ass.

However, she still has allies and friends. Those friends have been calling me a harasser for talking about the issue, saying I wanted to ruin her life with a bunch of "false accusations".

And I wonder, am I really doing well? So I go back to the evidence. I go back to the things I have personally witnessed. I know what I saw. Then why are they saying I'm lying? I don't think they understand how this situation has affected everyone involved.

I'm not a direct victim, but I think I was somehow a victim?

- I battled for months the urge to make this public; I couldn't sleep for a whole week due to the stress of realizing that, someone I called a friend, had been an abuser.

- I had to process that she had lied to me so many times, even pretending she was sexually harassed when there was proof that it didn't happen (who even lies about that?). Ofc I didn't know that and I fought for her, and she blamed me for blowing everything out of proportion because she was proven to be a liar.

- I told her very personal things, my fears, my problems, my trauma... And she used them against me, talked about them with others without my consent.

- She disrespected my beliefs when they quite literally saved my life, directly criticizing the specific deity that helped me after almost... Not being here anymore. And then called me intolerant behind my back because I asked her to respect me.

- She faked having DID, something I do not have but very deeply respect. For a long time it was my special interest and makes me think how wonderful the human body is, because it can create tools to survive, it's a reflection of the will to live of so many. Yet she used it as a weapon, as an excuse to be mean when someone set a boundary, or to test me to see if I could handle her being rude.

- Used autism as a weapon to harm others. As an autistic person, I have been asked to do more than anyone else to fit in, to deserve respect; I've been told my autism is not an excuse to... be autistic; I've lost jobs, I've lost friends, I've lost myself because of masking. Yet she uses it as an excuse to harass others and her closest friends actually defend her? Not to mention, we don't know if the diagnosis is even real.

- Tried to steal art from me when I was in a very vulnerable situation. She offered to sell my merch at the events she goes to. I thanked her and felt some sort of home. Then she said that I will have to mimic her art style, draw what she draws, and that she will have to pretend my art is hers... I backed down. Nothing happened. Later I found out she stole art, ideas and even tried to pass others art as her own at conventions.

- Every time I had to work on this situation, share experiences and raise awareness, I realized more and more that her actions are really similar to the one person who caused my biggest trauma. So I was re-traumatizing myself by trying to help.

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After going back I think, I was always close to being a full blown victim, but I wasn't. So what right do I have to complain about when others have much worse experiences? But it hurts anyway. Even if it wasn't that big of a deal I did hurt.

This person was my friend, I truly appreciated them. I have such huge trust issues, I don't even like saying "I love you" to my friends, or hugging them, I was always very affectionate and it's people like her that made me feel like I should hide, that I shouldn't love.

And her friends dare tell me I am harassing her because I decided to talk about what she's done? When I'm trying to protect others before they trust the wrong person? I guess I'll never do things "right" for everyone -I am going to therapy to manage better-, and I just have to suck it.

This was more like a vent post than anything else. I wanted to share this, but I didn't wanna do it in my art account because my name is now more linked to her than it is to my art (another blow to my self esteem).

It will probably be inactive for a while, since I have health issues and all. But because the English fanbase also wants to know, I think I should help translate, especially since I started this mess.