Hey You~
Ma handsome sunshine, how are you?~ are you having. Just thought I write to you , that moment when your writing to someone even though you know you’ll get nothing back since its like writing to the beautiful blue sky, pretty flowers and the sparkling universe. It’s been a while huh, as much as I stall and become reluctant to write anything I still end up writing. Where do I even start? hmmm, working at the theater does you no help when your single and want someone to be your side, or hold your hands.Well I got mad at frank for deactivating the facebook; sighs, although I really wanna see our past, this is supposed to help me ? I think? well its not really..but meh. Lately I’ve been really yearning for the mutual love with someone, hoping it could maybe be you. I had my moments where I have “If you were still alive and “ thoughts, how if we met you probably get bored of me, or wont like me anymore, or you would stop liking; I guess i still cant accept myself. All these thoughts I have , I dont know when I should let it out. All the pretty girls who you may have kept your eyes on, the one you dated, the ones who probably checked you out, I feel so underrated compare to them, typically when I can not match to them , even if it has to do with race. Every-time i see a cute couple thinking that; maybe just maybe, if you were still alive, we could be them , with the tiniest hope. Why am I so in love with you ? Is it just me being close minded person,just cause I was loved by someone like you, am I just conceited....gdi why are you so perfect? Your that typical hot guy that usually has a typical hot girlfriend.I mean if you were by my side would we be the same ? I’m just full of low self confidence , weakling that needs a mans love to feel secure? Who is my future husband, do I even have one? What is he doing right now?, how will he fall in love with me and when?!!! Yknow when I went to that event, and sat at a random table that ended up being table #22, was that a sign that we are destined? I want to bug the shit out of frank and ask him alot of questions, but hes not you .I just you were here, cause I cant stop loving you , I feel like im cheating, loving someone and continuing to love them n call them mine, and show off there love for me because no one can end it. Love is confusing, Life is unfair, Time Is painful, You not being here feels like a lie.
