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making it up to you + bokuto

✉︎request: Konnichiwa! I just stumbled on your blog and slightly stalked it too ^^ I would like to request a few dating headcanons for Bokuto Kotarou and possibly how he would make it up to you after a fight? Thank you mwahh <3 (@satoruswifeyyy)

✎a/n: our very first request omg!!! this made us all so happy to see ilysm <3 im so glad you enjoy our content! we def don't mind stalking our blog lol. also i got like super carried away and this is basically a full on drabble. oops!

✰warnings: cursing, fighting, hurt/comfort

Fighting with Bokuto never happens; the two of you argue, but you don’t fight. Neither of you have it in you to be cruel to the other, and it’s hard to find a reason with Bokuto that you’d really even be mad at him to the point of fighting. On the rare occasion that you are mad at him, it’s easy to sort things out before they even have the chance to escalate

But things had been different recently, and it’s left the both of you stressed and overwhelmed. With his career suddenly skyrocketing, and you facing your own struggles with work, it’s been hard for the two of you to spend any quality time together

You start communicating less and less, focusing purely on making it through the day. It doesn’t help that the limelight has been on him recently, and he’s started to garner all sorts of public attention and cultivate a growing fanbase. You’d love to lie and say you’re happy for him, but the truth is that it leaves you feeling insecure. Now that he’s really becoming someone, will he still need you? 

It’s like he doesn’t even notice that you’re feeling the effects of it all, but you’re not sure if it’s right to blame him. He’s been so absorbed in practices and games and training, learning how to balance it all on top of now having a public reputation to moderate and maintain. He’s always been so good about checking in on you, but everythings changing all at once and it’s like you’ve been cast to the very back of his mind

All the stress and insecurity explodes one night. It begins with a simple conversation, but the bitter undertones of feeling abandoned light a spark that’s never been present in your previous arguments, and with every remark it grows until you’re in a full on fight with each other

Before you know it you’re in a screaming match, “How could you just ignore me? Are you seriously so busy you can’t even answer my phone calls? You’re not like this, why have you changed?”

“Jesus, I thought you’d be supporting me. You know how fucking hard I’ve worked; this is just part of it, why don’t you understand that?”

You go back and forth for what feels like hours, going in circles and repeating yourselves just a little louder each time as if whoever can yell the loudest will be able to get it through the other’s skull

The final straw is when Bokuto has had enough; he’s been exerting himself all day long and simply doesn’t have the energy to continue a fight you picked with him as soon as he walked through the door. There’s a look in his eyes you don’t recognize. “Whether I even met you or not, I’d still be here today. I don’t need you for this”.

Stunned, you freeze. Your next remark dies on your tongue and you feel your heart sink into your stomach. Without another word, you retreat upstairs to the bedroom. 

When he sees the way your face contorts in response to his words is when he knows he messed up. Bad. All of the anger in him is suddenly gone at the realization that he’s hurt you; not just because of what he said, either. Letting it sink in, you had every reason to be upset with him, and he can’t believe he was too dense to even think about how you may be right. God, he’s the worst

He wants to run up after you, but all he can do is sink down to the couch and think about everything he said to you. He can’t get the phrase out of his head. I don’t need you? 

What a lie

You shut the door as softly as you can, occupying yourself with a bedtime routine to keep yourself from crying. Your cheeks aching from the way you bite them when tears prickle the corners of your eyes, you settle into bed when there’s a knock at the door

But you pay it no response, feigning ignorance. You can’t stop thinking about what he said. Your worst fear was just confirmed; he doesn’t need you. Now that he’s on the rise, he doesn’t need you. Not anymore

He comes in anyways, creeping into the bed beside you. You keep your back to him, careful not to move. You know he can tell that you aren’t asleep, but you ignore him anyway. It hurts too much to even be perceived by him

On top of the covers, he stares daggers into the back of your head, pleading with you. “Baby- baby please. I’m so sorry”

The seconds feel like hours. He can’t stop letting it ring in his ears and it’s so shrill, it hurts. What’s going through your mind? Do you hate him now? Are you going to leave him- oh god, it probably sounded like he was breaking up with you. He wants to reach out and touch you so bad, and it’s taking everything in him to restrain himself as to not further disturb you

But when he sees the way your pillow dampens and can finally hear sniffles over his own pounding heart, he breaks. Snatching you into his arms, you see tears pool in his own eyes

“I don’t know why I said that - I don’t know why I said that. I don’t know, I didn’t mean it, god I’m just so stressed. Of fucking course I need you, y/n… I need you like I need air, I don’t know why I said that”. 

Unable to avoid eye contact with him, you can’t hold back anymore. Sobbing, you struggle to choke out your words. “Am I… am I not enough for you anymore?”

Oh my god, is that what he made you think? He’s almost too stunned to respond, his hold on you tightening. He has to momentarily hide his face away in the crook of your neck, ashamed to cry after what he did to you. “Oh god, babe, yes you are. You’re always enough - more than enough. Nothing will change that…”

Wiping his eyes clear, he moves one hand to cup your face, directing your vision to his. “I never meant for any of this; not to leave you so lonely… God, I didn’t mean any of that. You’re what got me through this, please… Even if I were to get here without you I wouldn’t be the same, y/n… I’d be miserable without you”. 

Sighing, avert your gaze from his again. It’s overwhelming. “Kotaro… I didn’t mean to pick a fight. I’ve just been so lonely, you know? And you won’t pick up the phone, and I’ve been so stressed too; except it didn’t feel like you were there for me”.

“I know, I know… I’m so sorry. It was all unintentional… You’re always on the forefront of my mind, I’m just… not thinking. It’s a big change…” He can’t help but sniffle. “Can you ever forgive me?”

Letting his words sink into your eases your tensed muscles, and you fall deeper into his embrace. Truth is, you wanted to forgive him the minute he knocked on the door. You felt in your gut that he’d be taking it all back; after all, this fight was so unlike him. But that’s what made it so scary, too. 

“I think I already have. But hey-” you playfully punch him in the arm. “Don’t ever say some stupid shit like that again, yeah?”

He smiles, but it’s much softer than his typically toothy grin, bittersweet and genuine. You spend the rest of the night trying to make it up to each other, with him rubbing gentle circles on your tear stained cheeks, hoping to ease the raw sensation you’d imposed by wiping so many tears away. It doesn’t take long for you to fall asleep beside him, Bokuto murmuring in your ear a million apologies he hopes will creep into your subconscious. It’s only in the morning that he can make himself pull away from you for just a second, but the moment he does he’s pulling at his phone and calling in sick. Sure, his job is important, but he’s lovesick and can’t do a damn thing about it

✎a/n: i lov,,, lucifer. thanks for being our first obey me request! i understand what it can be like 2 have a toxic family, i hope this can help luv <3 i wanted to find some way to write nsfw into this but it just did not fit so honestly i might just make a separate post later

✰warnings: implied arguing

✉: Can I get Obey Me Lucifer comfort with an MC who’s family is just super toxic? Can be NSFW, but looking for some cuddles with my stoic demon 🥺 ( @flaringfoxsoul03 )

Life in the Devildom as a human isn’t an easy one, but it’s made even more difficult when you’re having to deal with the toxicity of the family you had to leave behind. It’s a tossup between where you should be, not really feeling like you belong in either one of the two realms fully, but your family has taken it all too personally

It’s always something with them; it just seems like you can never be enough for them and that they will always find a way to pick you apart and point out something you’ve done wrong. Lucifer knows this about them, but he also sees the way you’re quick to try and satisfy them

It breaks Lucifer’s heart to see you be treated this way by your own family. While he and his brothers have had their fair share of differences, communication is something that is highly valued (and enforced by Lucifer) within the House of Lamentation. Any conflicts are resolved in due time, but it doesn’t seem to be that way with your own family. No, conflicts only seem to worsen or be written off for unreasonable excuses, and it just continues in a toxic cycle

Lucifer is there every time that you have to deal with the aftermath of an argument with or within your family, always scrambling to pick up the pieces but always missing the instruction manual. He has to practice notable self-restraint so that he doesn’t interfere, but his patience is growing thin. He can’t keep watching you just get walked all over, all because these people are related to you. Lucifer knows what it’s like to feel as if you have no other option, but he loves you, and he’ll be damned if he stands by while someone else gets to talk down to you

When your family is feeling a little too bold one day and decides to take it out on you via phone call, Lucifer sits right beside you. He can hear the screaming through the other end of the speaker despite it being held to your ear, and his face contorts with discomfort at every off color remark you’re subjected to. It’s easy to see that he’s struggling not to lash out on your family, only keeping his composure because you look at him with such a pleading expression, and your hand tightens around his every time his lip twitches. 

Throughout the phone call he’s inching closer and closer, closing the distance between you as it lengthens with your family. It’s unbearable to see you so defeated, and he’s dying to take it away from you. It’s just gnawing at him, but he’s the avatar of pride after all, and is collected as he can possibly muster, your interlocked fingers resting atop the plush sheets of your shared bed while his other is rubbing soft circles into your shoulder

With the space between you becoming less, your thighs now pressed together, Lucifer can clearly make out every word being said over the phone, and it isn’t long before he finally caves to his burning desire to defend you. He comes to a compromise with his own pride, and simply hangs up the phone, turning your ringer off in the process

Almost immediately, relieved that at least you don’t have screaming in your ear anymore, tears begin to fall. Lucifer is quick to wipe the first few away, but when he feels his gloves begin to saturate he knows it’s a fruitless endeavor

Lucifer isn’t exactly sure how to react when people cry around him and you are no exception; if anything, he’s even more at a loss because of how heartbreaking it is to see you in such a state. This is one of the few instances that he succumbs to instinct and the simple takes over the sophisticated

Lucifer pulls your head into his chest and simply holds you. His chest is firm and broad and it’s so warm under the heat of his overcoat, his strong hands holding you so gently yet as if he’s never going to let you go. You can hear his heartbeat and it soothes you as you expel your overwhelming emotions, slender fingers establishing a stable breathing pattern through smooth strokes down your back and through your hair

It’s a good, long, and much overdue cry. You can’t even be mad at Lucifer for being so assertive and ending the call as abruptly as you did. Something had to be done, but it’s never easy to assert yourself to someone you feel so obligated to. He knows this, you know this, and it’s been the elephant in the room for a large portion of your relationship

In the aftermath, Lucifer would waste no time in helping you make amends to the situation for your own good. The choice is left up to you, but he will certainly be in your ear trying to persuade you into doing what he believes is best. Let him, and he’ll share some choice words with your family. Anything to get them to leave you alone. 

and it’s so much fun!!!! Good grief. I finally remember why I started writing fanfic in the first place. Also I want to talk through it with someone, so if anyone is interested in discussing a Hermione/Draco/Theo strip poker fanfic, shoot me a message. I was so nervous to try a new fandom, but it was exactly what my little writer’s heart needed.