#jmwrites

"Burden me. Please, always." is a quote that stays in my mind after watching the American Medical Series: New Amsterdam. It implies that you care about someone and that doing so is not a burden. A quote that I have used in my personal statement that is a requirement needed in the admission of De La Salle University. A quote that opened an opportunity for me. Devastated since I didn't pass the USTAR, but redirected to a new path. I was offered an admission to BS Human Biology at DLSU, the accelerated medicine program of the university. Now, I'm writing an essay needed for scholarship, an answer to the question if I am to continue to DLSU or not. Still grateful for the path that has been offered to me, time can only tell if I will walk through it or onto another path.

One shot.

Two shots.

Three shots.

Before you know it you've finished the whole bottle

Saying you still got this

Saying you're still sober and dared me for a kiss

I didn't deny you a peck or two

God knows how I love drunk you

You got braver by each shot

One, you'd hold me in public

Two, you'd remove the stray hairs dancing across my face

Three, you'd hug me without haste

Four, saying things you'd do to me

Fuve, you shamelessly say you love me

I feel like on cloud 9

Wishing you'd still remember this whole night

But shit happens

You only love me when you're intoxicated

You only kiss me with tequila on your lips

Tell me baby, do you really love me?

With all honesty

Don't rely on that Hennessy

Because drunk "I love you"s are not my cup of tea.

We have chemistry they say

Well, chemistry my ass

We were a deadly combo

Creating explosions everywhere we go

Burning good memories and making nightmares like a pro

Reminiscing past mistakes and making breakfast out of them

Feeding each other lies that tasted like vanilla ice

Puked evrything out since you added cyanide

We agreed to end this crazy charade

Made a truce with our tears as witness

With handshakes and fake smiles we parted ways

Knowing perfectly well we messed each other up for the next love

So good luck to us

They said I always leap without thinking

This time I knew what I was getting into

I'm no fool, I'm not a rookie in this battlefield for lovers

They warned us about this

It's either we're too brave or just too stupid

They all got their opinions about us

I say "so what?"

You got your baggage, I got mine

Old scars may bleed from time to time

I'll be the band aid, and you'll be my cast

Put earplugs in our ears to silenced the people who kept on whispering doubts

They're just supporting acts, we're the starring role

Who cares if we're not each other's first or second love

I could be the hundredth girl for all I care

As long as you chose to love me out of all those chaos

I'll be here.

I won't blame you if you get tired of me

I can act so sweet

Almost the perfect little girlfriend in front of everybody

But once we're alone

The screws in my head will start to turn

I can't help my overthinking mind and the constant devaluing of my pride

I am a product of my screwed up past

They tossed me around like broken glass

I have skeletons in my closet that I have yet to make amends with

Got exes that text me curses about how you won't stay long

They say they know me more and I'm not a girl who can inspire a love song

I am made of scars of empty promises and broke tequila bottles

Acting tough like a gangster on the streets of New York

Hiding anxiety like its a sport

Look me in the eye and see I've got no soul

A living dead with heart so vulnerable

Yet you unearthed the parts of me I thought was dead

Held my hand and taught me I deserve all good things

That I can create something beautiful out of this hate

I am a poison

I will let you devour me before i invade your body

I am delicious

You'll think I'm honey

But babe, I am deadly

One drop won't be enough

You'll want a pint or more

I can fill your hunger

Then make your skin change color

-Poison

I always tend to runaway when things get comfortable

I stray away from happiness as much as possible

Afraid I'd get use to that feeling

Then end up in heartache once its all taken

He came in like lightning straight from Olympus

A trojan horse who conquered my walled kingdom

He peeled my layers like I was an onion from his garden

I tried pulling away but he pulled me in

Lit a candle in my darkness and sat with me through the rain

He was there to hand me a hoodie

To survive the coldness of the city

Sang made up tunes to silence the demons and their whispers of obscenity

He was the sun wo melted the ice in my heart's four chambers

Gave me summer in the midst of December

And made the flowers bloom in my eternal winter.

-Happy Ending for the Little Match Girl