Not going to lie I didn't think this was a thing really. I knew him before I knew what a BTS even was. But I just knew he'd be my bias. And for almost 2 years this has been true. Within BTS I've never strayed from his side, and I guess he never strayed from mine either.  Maybe it's weird, writing this because all in all I don't know him, and he doesn't know me at all either. But I still want to thank him for it. Even if I didn't really know how much he was there.  I fell for his eyes first, my favourite feature of his by far. Not because they're big, and hold all the stars and the world. That too, but because I just know, by looking at them, that he's a good person. I have rarely met someone who is so genuine and gentle, that can make me feel at easy by just being, in a sense.  I might've not always expressed my care for him, might've not always said how much I loved him. But I do, so much. And it was this Spring, that I remember most.  When the one thing that grounded me got pulled from underneath me, it was the worst feeling I'd every experienced. And I remember so well, it was one of those first days when I'd been crying myself to sleep, that he did a live stream. And at that moment is was the most comforting thing. And it's stupid maybe, but it was as if he was everything I needed.  It came with it's ups and downs, and it took me a while to find his purchase with him. And even now i still learn new things about him every day. I discover fact by fact, and nothing seems capable of throwing me off.  I honestly dare and say that he is the most beautiful person i've ever met. Not because he's perfect, he's not. He pushes his limits till he breaks, he gets a bit cocky at times. But he loves to openly and so genuinely and wholeheartedly that it feels impossible not to love him back. It's a beautiful sensation. The way he speaks of those he loves. The things he says seemingly...I don't want to say fake because that's definitely not right. But sometimes he says things that make me think...wow did he really say that? And he did.  Today I saw a gif, and it was like he said the one thing I felt l needed to hear. Something that grounded me so much right there that I cried. Not for the reason I'd been crying for before, no, because I realised that what I needed was right here. And I'd missed it.  I realise that i can hold on to him, I can rely on him. He's not going to hurt me, even though that is what scares me. An irrational fear you might say. 

Dear Jungkook,