“I can’t stop loving you."
the aftermath of a breakup
tags :: nostalgia, heartbreak, melancholy | pairing: jihyo x gender neutral reader | not proofread!!
wc :: 500
cast :: y/n, jihyo
song :: Kaleidoscope - Chappell Roan
Every night, the thought of Jihyo's touch ravaged you. It had been more than five months since your breakup, yet the pain in your hearts seemed as raw as the day you parted. You could still feel the warmth of her hand, and how her fingers would delicately trace patterns on your skin, leaving a trail of comfort and affection. Your nights were now chilly and empty, filled with a desire that you knew would never be realized. You often find yourself reaching out in the darkness, hoping to find her there beside you. But all you grasp is emptiness, a cruel reminder that she is no longer yours. The scent of her perfume still lingers in the air, a ghost of the past that refuses to fade. You close your eyes, trying to hold onto the fragments of your time together, but the memories slip through your fingers like sand, leaving you with nothing but the hollow echo of her absence.
The hardest part is knowing that you can never go back. Your love is a memory, locked away in a time that you can't revisit. You see her smile in your dreams, hear her laughter in the quiet moments, but when you wake, reality crashes down, and the pain is unbearable. You miss her touch, her presence, her everything. But most of all, you miss the way she made you feel whole. Now, you are just a shadow of who you used to be, longing for a love that is forever out of reach. You wander through your days in a daze, every corner of your life a reminder of what you have lost. The coffee shop where you used to meet, the park bench where you shared countless conversations, even the songs on the radio that once played in the background of your happiest moments—all of it is a constant reminder of Jihyo. Each memory is a dagger to your heart, twisting deeper with each recollection.
As the days turn into weeks and the weeks into months, the pain does not lessen. Instead, it becomes a part of you, a constant companion that you learn to live with. You know that Jihyo has moved on, probably found happiness elsewhere, and while you wish her nothing but the best, it doesn't stop the tears from falling when you are alone. The nights are the hardest, filled with dreams of what could have been and the stark reality of what is. You lie in bed, staring at the ceiling, wondering if you will ever feel whole again.
In the end, you know that some wounds never truly heal. The love you had for Jihyo is one of those wounds, a scar that will remain with you forever. You will carry her memory with you, a bittersweet reminder of a time when you were truly happy. And though the pain is unbearable, you wouldn't trade those memories for anything, for they are all that remain of the love you once shared.
