#jessidork

(Writing this after I finished writing and this ended up being alot longer than I expected and now I feel like I’m hijacking jess’ topic and making it about myself but thats not what I meant idk what im doing)

Basically okay I always consider myself straight and if people ask I say I’m straight but I’m not, I’m bisexual? 

Like, I have been in love with/liked girls a several times, one of those times for over a year. But it happens rarely and far apart and its been a long time since last time and I’m really really attracted to boys and I have had alot of boyfriends and dated even more so its just easier to refer to myself as straight?

And everytime I see posts about how bisexual people are erased and forced into either the ‘gay’ or ‘straight’ category I’m always like ‘fuCK THAT LET PEOPLE BE BISEXUAL’. Like, I still think of it as other people. I don’t see myself in it even though I I should? Like even when it comes to posts about letting people identify as bisexual I still don’t think I ‘qualify’ to consider it to be about me?

Like. Okay. If I am to actually analyse myself I’d have to break it down and say I’m probably hetrosexual but biromantic. Like, I never see a girl and think ‘I’d hit that’, but I do with guys. But I’ve fallen in love with girls and then found that I’m attracted to them after. So I only experience secondary sexual attraction for girls, I guess, which is probably why I fall for girls so less often. Because mostly when I like guys I initiate kinda flirty contact from the start BECAUASE i find them attractive but it’s a different process with girls.