Warning for fear / paranoia (?) / delusions (?) and general creepy and unsettling stuff
I don’t know what you’d call it.
The feeling that there are things out there, watching you.
Sometimes they’re about to bite you. Sometimes they’re planning to do unspeakable things to you, things that are beyond human comprehension and too terrifying to attempt to describe. Sometimes they’re just watching, and you’re not sure what they want or what they’re planning or what you’re supposed to do to prevent from making them mad, to prevent them from hurting you.
The feeling that something is Off.
A fear in your chest. A pressure and weird feeling inside of your head. Your muscles twitching, and your nerves standing on end.
Every screamer, every disturbing thought and image. The expectation that every shadow will turn into a horror, or that any moment something will poke up behind a piece of furniture.
The feeling of being so connected--and so vulnerable and susceptible to the interdimensional workings, to life, to death, to existence and reality, to all the presences out there, to all the states of being. The fear, the fear, the fear.
Knowing that Something! Is! Wrong!
Something is weird. Something is off. Something is Not Right, maybe with you, or with existence, or the environment, or a weird mix of the three, or something else entirely. Or something unable to be placed, at all.
I don’t know what you’d call it. But I know it happens to me, and I’m almost scared to say “I want it to stop” for fear of what might happen to me if I do. What is it? What is it?
