#jelly_jilli

Choi Sulli is one of my biases in f(x) back in the day when they are still OT5. Today, she died. Upon seeing the headlines of her death in almost every site online, I still can’t believe it happened. It was so fast. She’s so young. She suffered online bashing and trolling since 2014. As far as I remember, it was when hatred and bullying becomes too much when she dated Choiza. Then she started posting weird stuff on her Instagram that makes her haters even more furious. There are concerned fans but she gained more haters than ever. However, she stands strong. She still lived the way she wants to live. It’s nice that even after leaving her group and gained a lot of haters she still has a good career. But weird uploads are still there (eg. no bra pics, panty posts). Then I heard no news of her because I’ve been too busy with my own life. Never thought that the next news I would be hearing from her is her death. She’s almost perfect. She’s one of the prettiest and beautiful faces in South Korea. She has a beautiful career, she can do what she really wants, she has the body, everything. But she’s sad. Because even though she knows she’s loved by her loyal fans, she can’t deny the fact that she can only have few people in her real life, she needs love. True love from people whom she can call friends. All of us just want to be loved. And yet, she can’t because of the bad light the media and haters have given to her. Whatever she does, she’s always bad, she’s not enough. And today she gave up. Maybe she’s so tired of everything. She reached her limit and that’s it, she shuts her life to everyone forever, including those who truly love her. We will miss you Sulli and your beautiful smile. It’s just sad that your voice won’t be heard any longer. We won’t see you smile any longer. P.S, Sulli you have the most beautiful smile for me, and I dreamt of becoming as beautiful as you back in the day. I will miss you! -14th of October.