Jeff Nixic with a preference for feminine pronouns headcanon/canon in my AU because yes
I was thinking of an NSFW comic where Jeff is masturbating while mentally repeating "I'm a good girl" with each penetration with the knife handle. She thinks, "Liking this makes me a little feminine, huh?" and repeats "I'm a good girl." He tries to grab her breasts and goes into a trance, looking at and feeling a phantom member. She continues, but now with a vague look of shame and sadness. She usually ignores when Jane calls her "daddy" or "good boy" and mentally pretends to be "mommy" and "good girl." There was one time, while he was having sex with Jane, and she called him "daddy" again. He stops and asks something: "Hey, Jane" Jane: Hi, Jeff, did something happen? Jeff: No, it's... can you call me mommy instead of daddy? *Jane is confused, trying to understand why this is happening* Jane: Huh?... Jeff: It's just a silly fetish, it's okay if you don't want to, hehe Jane: Hey, it's okay, I can do it for you Jeff: REALLY? Jane: Sure... Mommy~
She hadn't come out yet, but this was definitely the best sex she'd ever had. She likes feminine pronouns even though she doesn't identify 100% as a woman, after all she's nixic. I believe she would have an androgynous appearance if she hadn't become an assassin and would probably have breast surgery, She dressed in both feminine and masculine clothing and mixed them later, wearing a blazer and a slightly short skirt. She took pictures and thought, "It's just a weird fetish… right, Jeff?" But she wanted to walk down the street and be called by her/her name. She ended up crying for the rest of the night. After that, she just put on her usual tank top and shorts and sat on the sofa with the strongest drink she had, wondering what Jane would think of her if she knew about it. She imagined Jane being a jerk to her. Up until then, Jeff had performed a lot of masculinity, except in bed when she was sometimes more affectionate, but in public she was super masculine, which makes her fear that Jane might find it strange or hate her for it. She had built this masculinity since she was 16, and now she's 57. She thinks it's too late, but when she dresses androgynously, it gives her hope, and that hope ends when she feels ashamed
