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All I know is, I'll keep moving forward
Rain or shine, good or bad, ups and downs
That's life. You cry about it, thinking it through, find a solution and get it done.
Journaling November 21, 2024
It's a darn shame that I keep buying vinyls and some CDs and I have yet to buy any ACME or DIV CD. For shame on me for shame. I love them to bits and pieces and everything I have in the space in my heart I keep for music, badmen/boy girl bands. And like why!? Not having one of your favorite band(s) ever in your music collection is a sin when you're collecting every other artist you like. LOL. For real though I should get on that. I know finding DIV stuff will be hard. ACME is a bit easier. A Bun will get it done, promise that.
I made a list of where I can find stuff at an affordable price I'm not too mad about spending. First I'll start off with full albums then go from there. I know I'm not gonna find everything but I'm going to try.
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[βοΈ = found where to get it, βοΈ = not yet]
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I will do the full albums first,
DIV
β’ Zero One βοΈ
β’ SECRET βοΈ
ACME
β’ Zesshououka βοΈ
β’ WE ARE VISUAL KEI βοΈ
β’ Resisted Temptation βοΈ
β’ PARTY METAL ANTHEM βοΈ
(this one is quite new and yet I can't find it) Wait found but ridiculous prices.
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Then go into the EPs,
DIV
β’ Mudai no Document βοΈ
β’ EDR Tokyo βοΈ
ACME
β’ Senkou βοΈ
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Singles will be a maybe. Mainly because they're too short, harder to find, and pricer. And now I take that back. The full albums and EPs weren't that hard to find.
My love for you guys is infinite, look at my url/username hehee ππ (for gosh sakes Chisa's name is in there)
I got feels π₯° making this list and rewatching old music videos. After all these years still love these 6 badmen π
π EKO SOLDIER FOREVER π
Let the Illness be Mental
Great now I have to look for a new dentist because they don't accept my insurance starting the 1st of next year. I disliked doing these things. Let the anxiety begin (lol). I only went to that place once when I became a new patient last summer. Wtheck man. I'm gonna be mulling over making a phone call all over again.

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Why can it not be enough that I woke up, that I'm still breathing and got out of bed. Why does my body and mind want more than I can give. Why can I not function without those things. I just want to do the bare minimum and be alright.
Journaling November 5, 2024
Because I had thoughts whirling in my head I googled Libra traits. These are the Libra traits I understand I am. (and googled before I got bored reading about Libras lol) I thought I was never Libra enough but turns out I am Libra enough.
β’Although Libra are seen as extroverted friendly people, some Libra can be introverted.
- That's me I'm super introverted.
β’ Libra likes balance and harmony, so they try to keep keep the peace. That means avoiding conflict.
- That's me. I will avoid the person or thing causing the imbalance in harmony. Thus making me not as open as Libras typically are.
β’ Libras are social butterflies
- Being an introvert, aving anxiety and avoiding conflict is definetly the opposite of the typical Libra. That's me. And because Libras want peace and harmony, not all Libras will be outgoing. I'm that reserved Libra.
β’ Libra can be indecisive and hesitant
- That is a trait I vibe with so much. My indecisiveness takes me forever to make up my mind on things. Things like, what to eat, wear, watch, buy etc... Am I also hesitant, yup that's me too. I'm never sure of things if they are right. Will I make a mistake, did I say too much, did I hurt someone's feelings, am I being annoying etc....
β’ Which goes with Libra are affectionate
- I can be at times. It doesn't show much because my introvert anxiety doesn't often capture my affection. The people I show that side of me to are the people I trust to be that vulnerable with. They get to have sappy Libra me.
β’Libra make good friends
- I wanna vibe with this one but realistically I don't. I'm the opposite of social and I don't interact as much as the typical Libra would. I do agree I'm very honest and open, moreso then I use to be. BUT it takes people I'm close with for me to be that vulnerable. I'm a Libra who is socially awkward and bad at making friends.
- Libra love to share; be it food, advice, time etc... I think I fit into that. One of my traits I love is how snappy and generous I can be. You will be told how much I care about you. I will share my food with you. That is in my nature.
β’ Libra likes buying and receiving gifts
- True true true so very true. That's how I like to show my appreciation for someone. That's how I speak my love/friend language.
- Also read Libra are hard to shop for and like luxury. For me it's not the case. I'm appreciative of whatever you want to give me. I'm not full of high standards in the realm of gift giving. But yes I do prefer useful gifts and self care gifts. I always try to buy myself things like that.
β’ Libra can be mean sometimes
- Seeing as I project a sweet, nice kind person I get that. When I feel disrespected, someone is rude or it's not going my way; yes I can be mean.
- Also this other mean side of me is not an excuse, but it is a part of me that happens time to time. I can be unconsciously mean when I'm feeling my anxiety. After a while I do realized that it stemmed from anxiety and thus shift my personality back to normal.
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Ooh I've been journaling a lot these past days. It's mostly nonsense and things about myself but it's something.
The amazing feeling of knowing you did something you thought you were to scared to do. Something you thought you would never do. The feeling that you accomplished the thing when you doubted yourself so hard. The feeling that you proved yourself wrong and despite all your negative talk you overcome and did the thing.