#jdemons

In Sioux Falls to meet Bobby, boys along since it's not safe for them to be in Albuquerque anymore.  Between the two of us, Bobby and I hashed out what's been going on with Ms. Lyle and the others.  Bobby thinks I'm a fool for not wanting to believe that demons really exist, and he's not shy about telling me.  Probably he's right.  All the signs were there with Ms. Lyle.  But if you buy demons, you have to buy Hell, and if you buy Hell, you have to buy Satan, which means you have to buy God, right?  I can't sign on to one believe if it means I have to take on the others.  Only Bobby says that he's never run across a demon who's laid eyes on the Devil.  Most demons apparently don't even believe he exists.  The way Bobby put it is that demons are a lot like us where belief is concerned.  I don't wee it that way.  if demons exist, they are nothing like us.But i guess I think they do exist.  And I think Ms. Lyle was one.  I was in bed with her...that thing...and it was a demon.  I let it trick me away from the mission.  I let myself be led, I let myself be convinced that everything can be normal again, and it was all a tactic.  She wanted something from me, and she thought she knew how to get it.And she was almost right.  I've been lonely since Mary...I wanted to be touched.  Just contact.  And looking back, it makes me sick.