#jaminajar

Rule 1: always post the rules Rule 2: always answer the questions the person who tagged you asked and write your questions Rule 3: tag 11 people Rule 4: actually tell them you tagged them

Okay so I already did one of these so I'll answer the questions but I'm not tagging anyone else.

1. Favorite color and mood associated with it?

Aquamarine - think a pool lit up at night. Mood = tranquil, but energized.

2.  Your current obsession

kind of just doing nothing. like, whenever i have free time i just don't do anything.

3.  Do you collect anything?

Movie tickets, Legos for a while (not as much anymore, though I still have all of them), keychains and magnets sort of, stuffed animals (also not as much anymore, but I have like 50)

4. Best vacation?

That I've taken? A cruise to Alaska with my entire extended family (I'm talkin' grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins. A total of 14 people I think?)

That I'd like to take? Literally anywhere outside of the US - I kinda feel stuck. Preferably an English speaking country, though Spanish might be okay? I'm thinkin' Europe here.

5. What Is your favorite sound and smell?

Rain on a car roof or windshield holy shit I love it. Mix it with like soothing music and you have my heart.

I have a feeling this is a problem, but like garage/car/gas/mechanic shop smell? I don't know what it is exactly, but I'd recognize it. Like, car exhaust or something?

Can I add favorite touch too cause I just thought of it and it's important? Someone playing with my hair. Literally the key to my soul right there.

6. If you were reincarnated as an animal/drink/ice cream flavor, what would it be?

Deer?/caramel frappuccino/cookie dough

7.  What is the worst gift you’ve ever received?

I asked for this, I got this. I shit you not.

8.  What are you putting of at the moment?

An 8-10 page history essay about the effects of Stonewall on the Gay Rights Movement in America from 1969-1980ish. It was due today, but our teacher gave the entire class an extension to "sometime this week" because so many people were stressing out.

9. First crush, or most bizarre crush?

A girl (ironic; she reminds me of it like every time I mention my sexuality) I met in like 3rdish grade who went to my dance studio. She's a year older than me and still my friend.

10. If you could change your first name, and nobody could make fun of you, what would you change it to and why?

1. I skip about 7/17 of my class on a bad week, 2/17 on a good one. (I can't remember the last week that I didn't skip a single class).

2. I recently deactivated my Facebook. (Let's see how long I can keep this up--I'm guessing a day, max.)

3. If anyone gets within two feet of me, I am probably uncomfortable or on alert to some degree. If you're anywhere near my hands, feet, or face, I am almost definitely mentally flipping a shit.

4. Certain people smell really, really strong/good to me, to the point where I can't really think straight (I think I've met around five people in my life, all at different points who have this effect?)

2 Self harmed?Yes, though not recently!

19 One wish?To have my existence erased (think Nabari no Ou). I probably have a better, less depressing one, but it’s a little hard for me to think off the top of my head and I’m kind of a coward anyways. It also doesn’t help that I’m really angry with my sister and feeling kind of depressed right now.

I took multiple deep breaths and decided I'd like to edit my answer. I think it would be cool to be reborn a guy but still be me (like sometimes I enjoy wearing dresses even though being female physically makes me uncomfortable most of the time, which is Asian for saying that my body really bothers me, which is super Asian for dancing around my issue of transgenderism since I have followers from school--hopefully none of them are reading), or at least be aware of a different universe in which I am male so I can switch consciousnesses or something...?That's the most immediate answer I can think of which doesn't make me sound completely suicidal, anyways. (I'm not, I swear to God.)

33 Best day of your life?Again, a bit hard to think of off the top of my head, but probably the day that I realized that my passion was talking to people and helping them with their problems (which is cheesy, but true). It’s difficult at times, but once I figured out what I wanted to live for, it gave me a reason to keep fighting.

A lot of people on tumblr (or at least, on my dash, anyways) seem to be sad for some reason or another. So, if you reply with what you want drawn or reblog this and submit a request, I will draw it for you. You'll have to overlook my shitty drawings though.